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Monday's Post-Christmas Party by Mel Had a pretty fun time there (: After dinner, I sat beside Christine and we talked for awhile. hehe, she's pretty funny at times, but oh well. the problem is that.. when I giggle at her, she always - without fail - shoot back at me, "Why are you laughing?" Like I'm some weirdo .. :\ whoops. The games were pretty fun too.. except for the part when our cell/team did the dares. gosh, i hated both. one was the 'one teaspoon of wasabi' and the other was 'to draw moustache and beard on each member on the team' and I was like ..uh ...... totally Paul's game, but I'm just gonna do it because I don't wanna make a scene. And I just keep telling myself to just Go With The Flow and don't be a spoiler . Tuesday: Mad. Had to wake up really early (for me >.<) at about 10am as I had cca at 12pm .. It was pretty crazy too. Cos I slept about half an hour more, approx. 35-40 minutes to be exact. Well, there

More than satisfied Under the starry night skies We sit on the soft grass patch Little beautiful fireflies That we try to catch We talk about everything Under the Sun, Moon & Stars & almost anything maybe as random as Mars Reticent as you and I may be Just like a flower, We bloom instantly when we see each other A reason, and a situation To the point where no one will understand Or comprehend This little special feeling That I'm caught with & smiling It never stops doing what it has been doing when we talk It's as beautiful as a river Looking down at the waters Seeing your reflection a beautiful & complete perfection What more could I ever ask for than this special someone whom my heart's already chosen ? ~~~ Alright, gonna head to church after a bath! p.s. © Copyright 2010 My Poems . All Rights Reserved.

The air's fresh today! (: fyi, today, as in, Sunday, p.s. it's 12.53am now that's why. I'm currently eating christmas biscuits!! :3 nomnomnom! They were baked and given by DORA!! yay!!! good student indeed. :DD HAHHA !! Hmm .. alright alright. back to the part when I woke up. =.= yeh. that's how awful it was like - my eyelids were barely open so I looked like a walking zombie as I headed to the toilet to wash up. Before I knew it, I was instructed to help my mom with the preparation of sandwiches for 37 kids (sheperd's kidz). It turned out pretty okay. I did most of the cutting (the bread's skin) at first, then spreading of the ingredients. Yes, I used the term 'ingredients' because my mom followed it from the COOK BOOK ! :D Hmm.. my intention was to reach church early so that I could figure out the chords for the new song.. The reason why I didn't wanna do it at home is because.. well, I liked the sound of the piano in the music room more than i

JINGLE BELLS JINGLE BELLS, JINGLE ALL THE WAY ~~ Won't say much then. Gonna be going to paul's house soon for the christmas party. Regina's gonna ps me again for dinner with her family. But we're meeting later though cos I have absolutely no idea how to get there (: Hmm .. next week the new 4 of us are gonna go watch a band concert at dunman.. dunno high or sec ... school. Yupp, the newest member of the 4: CHARCOAL! :DD Okay, gonna end off. HAVE A MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS & A BLESSED NEW YEAR ALL! :DD

OH LOOK AT THE TIME! No, seriously, look. 4:56am. just GREAT . I'm so tired yet I've some sense of accomplishment at least! :D I'm done writing all the letters, just need to finish them up a bit. Can't give it to ye people tomorrow during service though. two reasons; regina won't be there & she has yet to pass me some cards for me to do some touch-up :\ Yes, I stayed up today.. till 4am+ before I blogged, of course. Another news is that I'm done with my jap homework! :D Now I just need someone to help me check ..... Hmmm .. and as u can see, in the title, it says, "lost some inspiration".. Yeah, I think that's probably the highlight for today. I mean, yesterday. or rather, these few weeks . I've not been sleeping well, and hence, I can't think properly. Somehow, my mind gets intimidated easily and I belittle myself. Hence, restricting myself from being creative. Leading to? I can't seem to write poems anymore! The new song's pre

HEEHEE :D Nothing much to do at home today. Therefore, I'm going out later at 6.30 pm maybe? to be on my way to The Arts House at the Old Parliament.. Sigh. Thing is, I may get lost. pray I wont >.< Hmmm .. im currently watching bleach's latest episode, 302 right now.. quite nice, but ughh!! always have to wait in suspense -_-" can't wait for 303 to come out though!! I saw goofy guy's specs at the end!! xD Alright, that's all for this post. really short though ..

A recommendation: Watch 'Ghost Town', 'If I were Superman' & 'Where God Left His Shoes'. Don't know what else to write for this post.. But... hmm.. well, I kinda rented a few dvds and watched them and I think these are the best among it. Ghost Town's a little dramatic and all, but I think the main point is about well, a to stop living in a world of your own thing .. It's quite touching, I said quite. Then If I were Superman basically is just a few words to sum it up: very touching indeed . HAH ! Okay, I really don't know how to say it. My mom said the moral of the story is to never look down on those kind of people. Well, with mental problem .. Turns out he really was a Superman. To a girl - His neighbour , my mom claims. The last one is about, well, no matter how poor the family was - how difficult it was to get a job, with a felony and all that .. - He struggles hard, he has a wife and two kids, a girl and boy. The boy sets out with him to

~3~ Woke up pretty late today, about 1pm? Yeah, I had dreams. I had loads and loads of dreams. one dream after another. and so my brain was tired and decided to stop dreaming at 1pm :D Hmmm.. Did pretty much nothing today. After i woke up, it was lunch, anime - one piece all the way till ep 55 then bleach's latest ep then back to one piece ep 56 - and lastly, jap class! :D ahaha! It was kinda funny cos while practicing, it all ended with, "Hai, wakarimashita!" in the conversation. I mean, it was A, B, A, then B will say "Hai, wakarimashita!" And so there was one part whereby sensei talked about smoking. Then A will ask B whether he/she wants to smoke. B says no with the reason. Then A - I'm guessing it's because A's got nothing else to say for this, so - says "demo" as "but" then repeats the question to B whether B wants to smoke anot -.- Well, with a more commanding tone, like, do it! that kind... Like uh.. But at least try it..

This post is just to get rid of a video. pls ignore, tyvm(:

maaaaaro! I don't know why I said that. Hmm.. okay, I shall munch on my guava while typing .. - stared at the screen for a few minutes now - .. I realise I've got nothing much to say since I practically slack the entire day today. haha! Hmmm.. some things happened .. well, one. And it was regarding my grandmother. Apparently, they've yet to come up with a decision of whether to have an op or not. But if have, then anaesthetic must be considered, otherwise fatal. And I was like.. H-herm .. okay .... It's really funny my grandmother's so ill - well, in the state whereby she either goes through an op or she lays in bed for at least/about 6 weeks .. - and yet I don't feel that much sadness like a relative should. Yes, I am sad. Yes, I am worried. But it's not much. It's definitely more than what I could feel for a stranger, but less than what I should feel for a relative.. I guess if it were my other grandmother, I'd be crying buckets right now.. & I

OWWIE ... It's guzheng gathering day today! (: Yes, I went for it. It's been really really awesome. I mean, the whole cycling thingy despite being scolded by an auntie for accidentally falling in front of her and also partially my friend and my fault since we were in the pathway(walking) side with our two-seater bicycle.. well, it was left there and we kinda wanted to get on to cycle to the other side, but could't get on.. didn't think she'd be that angry at us with the.. "Don't know how to cycle somemore!" comment. Yeah, I'm not used to a two-seater, you happy ? -.-" noisy =x Like seriously, what was with that last comment? I didn't mind the scolding - typical aunties after all - but that was totally very much close to what I hated. Classifications. Stereotypes. WTH! Just because of one action, she totally judged me and said I couldn't cycle. This pisses me a lot. The most, well, at least from what I've experienced so far. This ju

Heard of this scenario before? Your mother walks towards the ntuc and go, "alright, go in, buy tang yuan, milk and bread and we're out." then she walks in and directs her attention to something nice like wine and go, "Ooo!!! I could get this for (whomsoeverwhomsoever)!!" and ends up at the cashier with the basket full of junk and stuff and even gifts? Yeah, my mom was prettyy crazy today :s anyways, we rented some DVDs to watch. We've watched 2 today so far. Ghost Town, and Serenades. Pretty nice and touching movies(: Alright, I'd better get going, it's 2.29am in the morning.......

*STRETCH* Slept for the LONGEST time ever. I think. Friday I spent most of my time sleeping -.- seriously. I reached home at 11 plus and plopped to the bed and woke up at 8 plus for dinner. haha! Then .... watched america's got talent, survivor > Jane's out ): evil, I don't like chase, really. really. Then went to sleep from 1am to 11.30am. Hmm.. let's do the math, 9h + 10.5h = 19.5 HOURS ! whoa. Just brought orlie to see a vet. she took 2 jabs and we went home after a car wash. Haven't had lunch .. gonna get eat later. talking about eating, come to think of it, yesterday, all I ate was grapes and dinner.. !! O.O And so.. today .. a butterfly bread thingy + hmm ... lunner? LOL . Sighs. Many people from ye are travelling this week. even regina too! ):): I'm gonna be all alone ... GWAHHH . Sigh. Come to think of it, I'm gonna be so next week. haha, no plans ._. oh well. I don't think I plan to finish my holiday homework, but I guess I'm willing to d

MWAHHH ... :\ Yesterday rained for about the whole day ..? And mosuitoes swarmed everywhere this morning =.= As a result, in just 2 hours - walking outside too, of course, awhile.. - I'd got bitten by them 8-9 times. Yesterday slept on the floor on the towel they provided and used another towel as a blanket. LOL ! Sounds funny, but seriously, I think I'm gonna catch a cold if I do it again tonight - NOT TO MENTION BACKACHE >.< Yesterday was quite an exciting day for me. I think. haha, gaming, full time. so on and so forth. I've managed to get people addicted to sneezies! :DD How awesome is that? them learning to be kind-hearted creatures, saving fluffy stuff but poofing 'em :D Hmmm.. a little disappointed though. Like, a should've-known-better thing.. Like, yeah, we should've expanded the budget for food because it would seem we're running out of stock .. More people will be coming later and I think we'd need to go buy more stuff ....... Anyways,

Excitement! ((: YE chalet's tomorrow and.. I'm still packing.. I still have no idea what to do there besides talking .. Worst part of all..? Looks like my throat's infected and my voice has gone EVEN lower. somehow sounded a bit like the uh .. guy-going-through-puberty voice. Sigh. Oh well, what could be worse right? I just ate my fav chips. LURVE, multigrain chips. FAB! Anyways, really really excited I'm going to a chalet. It's been like CENTURIES since I've been to one!! xD Okay, better get back to packing! (:

AAAAHHH CHOOOOOOO!!!!!!! yupp. that's what some call me. Slacked in the morning and kept sneezing esp. =.=" Later my dad requested to go Sengkang since he needed to buy stuff and right, my dinner dress too .... Went out afterwards and got the stuff we needed. I was contemplating on two dresses, I really really couldn't choose between the two of 'em. Actually wanted to go home and think about it, but my dad told me to buy both anyways ... When we got to the counter, my dad realised he had forgotten to bring his card and whoops! So went to ask the lady if there was any discount for the dresses. Apparently, only one had, so he bought the one without and reserved the other to collect at night. Soon after, we went home and I had to cook dinner. YUMYUM steamed fish head :D is the BEST DISH EVER !!! And I cooked the mushy porridge, the one that babies eat, soft and mushy :3 I mixed it with pumpkin! so it's sort of a little sweet porridge (: My mom came home just in time

Change. The word I detest the most. really. - or for now, at the very least - Change number 1.. The day before yesterday night, I had a minor sore throat due to the bad haze that day. Then yesterday I woke up feeling all woozy and then came the heavy head and flu.. and before I knew it, I had a temperature too. I think it hit at least 38 d.c. Just THANK GOD it didn't hit 39 or I'll miss out on everything. Change number 2.. Now that my fever's subsided, im still down with flu and slight headache, but it's getting better I guess..... Church matters flow in. Okay, before I go on. Here's the probably OCD part. The time when we sang "At the cross", there was a part when we sang "I know you love me", yes? Now, I was EXTREMELY IRRITATED when Mel sang, "I know you loveD me" I was so angry and I just felt like turning around and tell her, Do you have ANY IDEA WHAT YOU'RE SINGING?!! Okay, I'm sorry. It's just that.. I really can'

As everybody - excluding my sister - had their eyes all glued to the tv we weren't even gonna watch.. So I switched off the tv and said, "I'll turn it off, daddy, go take a bath, mommy, take orlie and sugar's leash, plastic bag, wet tissues and a bottle of water then let's go!" And my head drops to the pillow below my chin.

それをしましょう！ Woke up pretty late : 1.30pm.. Oh well, I didn't waste much time today though! (: Played two games of bowling with eeyore on msn and went to nex again to meet regina. STILL don't like that place. Oh well, I kinda agreed cos I also wanted to find a place to hangout like.. after school.. and that it'd hopefully be near the exit so I wouldn't be suffocated by the crowd or something like that.. Hmm.. managed to find one, but uh... not really sure yet. [my mom just came in and sat right next to me and I had to browse through fb news feed because I seriously just came on to talk to people on msn and blog. Apparently, while I was doing both of that, she had to come. great, I tell you, if I'd done all that in front of her, she'd give me a long speech on each of the things that I'm currently doing now. ugh! why is it so hard to make her just give me some space when I'm doing something like this? Personally, not that I'm really bothered by her exist

Step forth. Silence yet peaceful All is dark but there's a light She enters on her toes The light grows dim The cool ambience and tranquility in that instance She moves gracefully Flicker, flicker Chin up, then down She hears her teacher's remainder, TAKE OFF THAT FROWN ! Flicker, flicker, flicker, flicker All eyes now on her Rapid movements; she swings A small voice sings Flicker, flick, flick Her soul, she starts to dance with Zig-zag neon lights surrounded her Like a reindeer Or someone on fire The hunger and desire She twirls and twirls The voice trembles Flick, flicker Down on her knees she bends backwards On the big finish The music stops Time ceases for that moment Their breaths was all That filled the air Slowly, but surely bit by bit now Arms wide and free She takes her bow One stands, Another follows Combining their hands Like crashing dominos Thunder flows Scared ti see its boldness Their proud, gleaming faces Slightly-twitched lips at the side I've never seen he

uh. nocturnal-ness. insomnia: activated/on! Bad bad day. Morning tried to get rid of personal grudge - fine with it now actually. Came home after the comp. and was very very tired. I wanted to sleep, but I didn't have time.. Just when I was getting ready to leave my house for jap class, had bad gastric and diarrhoea. zzz... then it left me no choice but to stay in bed and rest. Just woke up not too long ago, feeling a bit better. But I guess I have to rest just a bit more later at night. actually i just woke up to for dinner and later to feed orlie. sigh. don't wanna do anything else.

tired, not tired, tired.. I came up with the draft of the new song last night (I couldn't sleep. insomnia).. Woke up this morning without my alarm clock. two hours before my alarm would normally ring, actually. Went to SCH - again - to support my junior! :D Unfortunately, she overshot the timing of 10 minutes!! :o But she still got 3rd anyway (:(: But I think if it weren't for that, she could've gotten second. The girl who won first prize is super pro! For her age lah. I mean .. with some weird type of guzheng with the guai yin .. Oh well. Shang-E was one of the judges!!!! fyi, shang-e is the composer of the song "xue shan huan ge", which is one of the two songs that my junior played. I'm really really proud of her!! :DD It ended at about 3.45pm and Guof and I wanted to go jogging after we got home. But it rained DD; WHY MAN ?? WHY !! just when I got the mood to go jogging -.- Anyways, stayed at home to try out the song "Dreams" by yiruma. So far at

Well, sorta. Wei Ting, my childhood friend, was supposed to come this morning. till afternoon about 2 plus. but cancelled that since I woke up late =x And so I just ate lunch, sent orlie to the groomer's to cut her nails! :3 Then slacked till about 3. Got ready then left my house to go meet Sherrill and Damia for our cell outing. Yeah, that's right. three of us - a cell. yupp ._. Turns out Rachel and Gerald weren't coming ... Nevertheless, we enjoyed ourselves a lot with iphone/itouch games!!(: And Sherrill went all GAGA with the veg. ninja game. The cutting vegetables one. haha! After meeting them we had dinner and the fun and went to fairprice to buy snacks before heading towards the cinema =x And so ... meanwhile, Sherrill went GAGA again over a hat which she was so wanting to get but didn't know if she should AND also which she didn't .. in the end :\ We watched RAPUNZEL ~ haha! A really funny movie and all. It turned out to be much different than what I ex

BRR .. I didn't do much today. Woke up, got a missed call from lao shi because I literally didn't wanna pick up.. well, I wasn't exactly awake you know.. with the still in bed, eyes 1/3 open and especially the morning voice... nuh-uh! No way was I gonna pick up the call -.- He called later at night anyways, talked and gahh.. I've got a last rehearsal @ 12pm @ my primary school :\ Hmmm ... I think I'm pretty okay with it for now. FOR NOW . Hmm.. spent most of the day at Singapore Conference Hall. Guof and I went to support Ming Fang!! :DD We took the programme booklet and looked through it. And guess what? There's this girl who's gonna be the first to play - same category, of course - HAS THE SAME SONGS - BOTH! - that she's gonna be playing if she's gonna enter final round! Mo Li Fen Fang and Huan Xiang Qu. NUHH !! HOW WAS IT EVEN POSSIBLE ?!?! DD; Aiya. heck about that now. MING FANG GOT INTO THE FINAL ROUND !! :DD YAY !! GO MING FANG !! (:(: Well, a

Jibbits! Guzheng prac and rehearsal didn't go very well. I hated the guzheng. Well, I mean, I didn't know until I played it. The strings were old, it was as if it was gonna break anytime. The first time I video-ed, I didn't do well at all. I know. It was because of the guzheng combine with some leftover nervousness in me. But at the second try, it was MUCH MUCH better because I changed 4 of the high notes strings - cos I was given more time to practice, so in the meantime I changed the strings. Thank goodness. I was still partially disappointed. Yesterday during the lesson with my lao shi, I had done so well, even though there were still little gaps of improvement to fill. However, instead of improving, my standard deteoriated. What a disappointment! Sighs. But anyways, I'll do my best, that's all that matters now. Tomorrow, Ming Fang will be competing at Singapore Conference Hall at 2pm. Guof and I will go down to support!! ^^ Furthermore, feel the atmosphere, and

*Moans* sobsobs. I couldn't sleep any longer. I woke up at 10am+, auto - even though i set my alarm to 11.10am. And guess what? Right at the next moment, I received a phone call from my teach, saying that there'd be guzheng lesson TONIGHT at 7pm. oh dear. and I gotta bring my thumbdrive and camera along with me. Sighs. What a way to start my day. all gloomy -.- Hmph! Nevertheless, I've decided to enjoy till 3pm before practicing - before guzheng lesson at 7pm - and so, I decided to watch K-On! (: Following up: One Piece! yeah! I've started watching it again. I like the feeling when I watch it. Always boosts my confidence somehow (: Alrights. I'd better get going~ -Sighs- I typed a bunch of crap here just now, but I'm too fed up to type it all out again because my laptop didn't copy what I typed just now. Or rather, SAVE TOO. So I'm just gonna say, I recorded two times. And well, since I can't upload it on blogger, I'll be uploading it on my tumbl

I have decided .. to follow Jesus! I have decided .. to follow Jesus! I have decided .. to follow Jesus! No turning back.. No turning back .. Just that, well, it's not that. I've decided to go for tomorrow's games day and give support. YES, PAUL , you've succeeded in your persuasion in making me go for tomorrow's games day :\ Oh well, can't give all credit to him. In fact, I think it was today's practice that made me all pumped up about tomorrow! :D Can't believe I'm saying this, but I'M SO READY FOR THE FUN! :DD But seriously, the thought that it might be muddy - or rather, it WILL BE anyways - just gives me the grossed out feeling. I'm really afraid I might step onto a snail or something. There'd be that *CRACK* sound and I'll NEVER PLAY FOR THE REST OF THE ENTIRE GAME. Hmm.. I liked today's cell(: It made me do a lot of thinking and well, answered some of my questions I've been wanting to ask - which I actually thought, wel

News this morning. YOSHHHHH! I'm done with the 1000-piece anime puzzle of vampire knight! ((: Would take a picture once I frame it up .. Have yet to buy the frame -.-" Hmmm .. actually wanted to get the one with all the guys. haha! x3 They're really really shuai! But then again, the graphics weren't that sharp - not as sharp as this I guess - so I decided to choose this one instead. Anyways, Yuuki's still sort of the main character right.. so being the biggest person in the picture should be fine ...... okay, what the heck am I talking? -.- Hmmm .. Days have been quite fruitful and it would seem that I'm opened to more surprises! (: Thank God these are happening, otherwise I think I'd still be the doll sitting on the already-collecting-dust shelves. Because of some technical problem/error, guof can't take out the disk and I can't listen to my recording ):): Hmmm.. Anyhow, my recording today (supposedly at 7pm) is postponed to tomorrow at 6pm. Great.

It was awesomely slackish yet awesomely fun! Tasted some new-flavour of the day sandwich! Toasted in 90 seconds ^^ Hmmm.. Had satisfying comments by my teacher. Recordings presume on Thursday night after my guzheng lesson 5-6.30 .. 30 minutes break.. So.. 7pm.. Hmmm.. I think I'd be so worn out during lesson =.="

I've lost it. Sunken deep down my heart hits the bottom of the jar Now I'm being famous for all the frowns In the emotional town. The thoughts of the competition coming up makes me wanna puke. i'm serious. I think im having some really weird phobia or something. The thoughts that run through my mind when my teacher pushes me real hard .. "We have strong competitors.." says a friend. Strong? It's my first time, and not only is it in the Singapore Conference Hall, but with STRONG COMPETITORS?? "Our grading exams are not official ones .." or reknown, by the same friend. Then where do I stand?? I feel lost. I've already been psychologically defeated! Timid. Coward. They just pop up in my mind alternatively one at a time and sometimes, both together. My sis and I went out to make her contacts in Kovan. Before that, we were watching nickelodeon. They were showing iCarly and the next programme was Big Time Rush. They were funny, I gotta admit. My si

SNNNNNNNOOOOOOZZZIES!! (: Really tired. Went to bed at about 12am+ but slept at 3am+ ): I think my insomnia probs are coming back! )): Then woke up at 9pm today. okay, 9.15am. plusplus :\ Snoozing button again.. haha! I'm really half disappointed at myself and half .. kinda proud at myself for my presentation during my guzheng lesson. I was disappointed because I was easily distracted and my heart and concentration wasn't fully in the song. I'm kinda proud because I managed perform much better than I thought cos my tummy was growling -.-" Gahh... so now you see why I was distracted :\ Hmmm.. It's alright! It was FULLY satisfied after I step foot in reg's school carnival~ TOTALLY SPENT MY - well, my mom's - WHOLE 10 BUCK ON FOOD !! :DD oh well, and "donations". But who cares? I ATE A CANDY FLOSS, SIZED BIGGER THAN MY HEAD !!!! :DD HOW AWESOME WAS THAT !!! ((: Took buses 76 and 158 to my place and totally watched tv throughout till

Couldn't come up with a better heading :\ HEYY!! I've started on the third page of raindrops! (: So far figured out most of the right hand parts, now the left and the fitting in .... hmmm... I practically just slacked most of the day but oh wells.. at least I watched one piece! :D I stopped at ep 44 and it was about the ending of the vicious battle between luffy and shark cum human guy. Hmmmm .. the ending was really sweet. like, really really sweet (: Yupp.. it's about time I leave - for jap class, I mean. It starts at 6.30pm and it's already ... 5.47pm DD; BUT I CAN'T BARE TO LEAVE!! I WANNA WATCH MORE :\ And besides, dango song is making me feel all homey and not wanting to leave the house =x okay, i know I'm not making any sense. but oh well, can't help it. Talking about dango.. I haven't actually tasted one before! O.O LOOKS YUMMY ;P

Funny! but awesomely cool! :D Went to singapore conference hall for the practice/rehearsal with my dad and guof! :D Great supporters!! (: Hmm .. the atmosphere was.. it was just really quiet and just one small "plucking" of the string is amplified throughout the ENTIRE HALL. It was really cool. Too bad I only had a little time (30min) to practice. I managed to play all three songs though the third one "huan xiang qu" was not completed ): I think if I played all consecutively with three different guzhengs and not waste time tuning, I think I'd be done in about 20~25 minutes or so )): Gotta work on playing fast next time! (if there is a next time. i mean, competitin practice day ..) When I came back, all i wanted to do was relax and sleep! the day before yesterday was intensice practice of 6 hours and yesterday had the mini perf. thingy. WHOO! I'm tired. haha =x I do have to sound relaxed.. well, I just don't wanna end up being all tense on the day itself

Yesterday, as in, 17 nov .. Woke up at 1pm+ and realised that it was wednesday. Had a mini perf at night. Guof's gonna being performing too. Sigh. It's not exactly a perf., but more of a demo. So I guess it calmed my nerves down a little bit. Hmm.. As compared to yesterday's "perf"/"demo" in front of my juniors & sec 3s, today's was way better! :D Hmm .. which reminds me ... CRAP! I DIDN'T TAKE MY MEDICINE TODAY! I mean, I only took once, but GAHH!! THAT'S NOT ENOUGH! crap -.-"

I've been robbed of my freedom today! ): 12-6pm. guzheng prac, includes playing in front of people ._. juniors mostly, and some sec 3s too. xiong!! but at least I got to overcome my stage fright .. well.. I don't know, with tiredness and anger and frustration cos my teacher said my guzheng was out of tune when - HELLO! - i checked, it clearly wasn't. crap! that means i an ('press') bu zun!! sighs. Hmm .. didn't go jap class today. was too worn out ._. IM ACHING ALL OVER FROM MY SHOULDERS TO MY ARMS TO MY HANDS TO MY VERY FINGERTIPS! T-T Ohoh!! REGINA CAME BACK TODAY!! FROM CHEEENA!! YAYYY!!!! :D & she came over to my place and before that she even called to tell me all about it - even at my house. NON-STOP! MUAHAHHAA!!! she's sure got funny, very happening and weird bunch of new friends she made during the trip! :DD Anyways, she went back home at 11+ meanwhile I nearly finished trying out the first page of raindrops ! :DD I became really glued to the so

Sick. Just before night meets day Day sleeps with night Reflection on shimmering waters of the snake's body, The world vanished, with nothing in sight. gahh ... worst! lost my appetite. lost the ability to speak. like a soul beside a human being .. but not in it. I just feel like sleeping and never wake up.. know that feeling?

great day/ best day :OO Hmm.. It would seem I can't make it for the leaders' retreat DD; Yet again, it's guzheng's fault -.- pek chek!! really really!! Hmm .. I felt God's presence today and even if it's just for awhile, I think it's that very little words said by someone that injected some confidence into me. Well, all is well and I've been thinking and doing quiet whispers to God every now and then. Hmm .. I guess it's just something I've got to endure for now, to my own benefit anyways.. I mean, my competition practices and all.. Stress and pressure is down on my shoulders, but God always know how to lift them up! (: Hmm .. ohoh! completed jap homework! yeaaaa!!! oh wait. GAHHH!! BEN I THINK YOU FORGOT HOW TO TELL ME HOW TO DO THE LAST QUESTION!! Hmm......... oh yeah, and I exchanged ipods with my uncle for awhile, he's currently helping me do repairs and jailbreak -_-" So I'm currently using his spare one, 1g, 32 GB though. But

HIGHLIGHT OF MY LIFE SO FAR. I'm really, really fed up over this. (im typing this only because after an sms sent by a friend, it suddenly poked a bubble inside of me and i had to let it out.) I hate it whenever guzheng timings get in my way of doing other things like not attending church events, or going out with my friends or something. But I get the most irritated with the church one. esp. when's there's a very important speaker! HELLO. i totally wanna call it out. I know in life, guzheng's not gonna be the only one I'm committed to. But seriously, right now. I totally have a shut out, huh?? I really hate it. I don't want my competition date to be on a sunday. i won't let that happen. no way. I really really really don't want it to happen. PLEASE, NO! Going out with my friends.. restricted too, huh? I really really don't know why, but please believe me, I really have no time to go out with you guys now. I'm under immense pressure. talk online

Truly .. disappointing. I'm disappointed with myself. that's for sure. I don't know if I'd really serious about the competition anymore. At one point of time, I'm really nervous about the competition, so I "relax" and do other stuff like watch anime or spend time playing.. i don't know what, etc. At another point of time, I feel wasted. Like I could've practiced and point arrows at myself for not doing so and resulting in such a tremendous deteriorated standard of playing. I don't even feel like I'm grade 10! Like, wth?? I felt very disappointed at myself. It's like I want to excel so well in it. But the part when I think of me performing - or rather, COMPETING - on stage at the singapore conference hall where air-con is worse than 18 d.c. in my godparent's house, I. freak. out. I simply can't think of it! I'll run away from the problem by studying jap, watching anime, and so on .. I think this stage fright thing has got to

SUGOI!:D Watched One Piece today till episode 21. Gonna be watching more later on! Had studied before lesson and wouldn't ya know? The lesson wasn't that bad after all! :D Although there's still that little prob.......... sensei's a meanie! haha, okay I sound childish :\ Hmm .. learnt and became a bit more familiar with the sentence structure > Jap. hurray!! :D Hmm .. and tomorrow I'm gonna die! yay! I've resumed guzheng lessons with my doom. And I'm probably gonna die tomorrow 11-12.30pm. Must come and bring all your flowers, kay? I'll tell you the hospital I'll be in and the ward no. too. ._. back to one piece~ next anime (after one piece): final fantasy

BLEACH 293 AND 294 IS TOTALLY AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT MY BLEACH 297!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ONE PIECE IF TOTALLY AWESOME!!!!!!!! AND AND AND FLUFFY'S AWESOME!!! AND GREEN-HAIR GUY TOO!!!! sheesh. hmm.. looks like the beginning parts of my hols. are gonna be occupied with anime marathon~~ Here's the list: - One piece, at least 33 episodes - Final Fantasy, at least 23 by this month! - K-On, at least hmm .. I don't know how many episodes, but I'll give the extreme minimum of 15 ._. Hmm .. Others I shall wait till my revision/homework are either done or nearly done. Can't get too hooked on anime :\ Besides, I've got a scary competition that awaits me DD; I DON'T WANNA GOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! T-T Anyways, I edited my anime list. a bit only. so yeah. eh-hem. yeah.

HOME (: Yesterday after jap lesson I was talking to Cara and said I'd stay at home today - like all day. And just relax. really, it helps. As in, doing nothing. Or rather, like today, I just watched harry potter all the way. I watched the order of the phoenix and half-blood prince one. Really interesting, since I'd forgotten some parts already .. Anyways, I planned to go to zoey's house today. I woke up a few seconds before my alarm sounded. Cramps again. Real bad. I stayed in bed all the way. I was really wide awake. But I managed to sleep somehow and when I was suppose to leave my house at 12.30 the latest, I woke up at 2.34pm ........ Anyways, she didn't exactly confirm that I could go anyway ._. Oh well, that's why I watched harry potter. Hmm .. cooked dinner and my sister is SUPPOSED TO GO MACS TO STUDY !! Math paper tomorrow - a levels. What's she doing now? sleeping -.- And here she reminded me that after dinner, to remind her to go macs to study. I just

I've decided .. To turn around, Walk away .. And forget everything about it. Hehs. tried out a new thing, title > poem. Hmm .. I'd say I've had a harsh day today. But I still found joy in everything that I did! :D School teachers were a little mad, but everything still went well, understood stuff - except physics. I couldn't really understand until the very end when my mind was finally clear from thinking about some stuff. Jap lessons were great. they were hilarious. there was much humour. teacher sabo-ed me, but it's good anyways, for my learning benefits. I'm glad I didn't feel the same way as I did last week! (: At least Cara was there to help me, yea? I mean, well, accompany me to chat during lesson time. And it wasn't as strenuous as last week too. Ate dinner with Cara and then went home to see orlie! :3 Ngeh. now I've got nothing else to do but watch anime! haha, oh well. I'm not watching that now though, got something else to watch. Hmm

They're HILARIOUS AND AWESOMELY COOL! ((: Love the way you lie (mashup) by Sam Tsui King of Anything by Sam Tsui Don't want an ending by Sam Tsui JS's Let's warm up! Bubblegum song by JS (Janice & Sonia) Family guy - cool whip Family guy - Bird is the word! I'm not exactly sure why it's really funny, but I'm pretty sure it's fully retardeddd!!!!!!! This is the ultimate. I totally love this! Reminds me of the annoying orange.. somewhat. haha! My sis was telling me about these funny videos. Sure did cheer me up! (: AND I LOVE THE BUBBLEGUM SONG! POP, POP, POP, POP, POP, POP, POP, POP, POP, POP, POP, POP, POP, POP .... POP! :DD Do spread the word!! :DD Kay, I know that was supposed to be the last video, but I couldn't help it. I watched another video and well, I felt it CLOSELY RELATED TO EACH AND EVERYONE OF US :D

Cloudy days In this quiet area the winds travel in all directions, Blow away dried leaves, collected on the ground .. How convenient is your work, With that speed of movement What art you create With those graceful twirls you make with those leaves as they fly about But .. Look at the mess you've made you blew, swiped, brushed, all over the place The mess you've created The problem you've now multiplied; more complicated now and they won't disappear From the face of the Earth Until someone, like yourself, clears the old leaves by yourself. ~~~ This morning I think it rained and my synus acted up again. Physics lesson was really boring. I couldn't take it. My row - again - was thinking of what lessons to pon. I went home after math, which was after physics. I mean, physics > break > math > break. Yeah, during the second break. Was so tired. I'm starting to hate school now. I don't know why, it's really .. well, not much of a reason except the fac

Tired )): Jeez, slept at 2+ this morning and woke up 8/9+ Well, logically i woke up at 8 - by my alarm .. but .. I always have this habit, of snoozing it. And since I set it to sound every 5 minutes, I snoozed it every 5 mins and my phone stayed in my hands for an hour, while I snooze it every 5 minutes. I think even my body got accustomed to it. the SLIGHTEST sound that I hear, my fingers take action =x Today, during morning service, the sanctuary was REALLY REALLY COLD!! Freezing man.. I think my synus acted up. But not really at that time, it's like on/off after the morning service. I was totally with the pastors in the beginning, part middle and end. They lost me off somewhere >.< And well, regina couldn't concentrate, I think she was doing her work. church work. haha! Hmmm ... even though I was gone in some of the important parts, I guess I got the gist of it.. though not detailed. Soon after, looked for my benefactor - amazingly it fits your name perfectly. ben - ef

:j That's a smiley face btw. Hmm.. had "cell" outing just now. so sorry for the last min arrangments though :\ Oh well, at least some turned up :D Had an extremely embarrassing moment about the ice-cream on the floor? Did people stare? :\ uh-oh. ngeh. but I didn't really take note .. :\ Hmm .. well, don't know why but I feel extremely tired. It was only like .. about less than 3 hours before I stepped out of my house and I started yawning -.- And right now, my eyelids are just.. so .. heavy ... =.= Plan to watch bleach again though. I didn't get to watch till 290 the other time :\ Was busy doing other stuff. can't remember .. again . But I DID remember that.. um .. i stopped at .. um .. I think ...... 288? And currently am gonna watch 289! :D mmmmm ... - *checks* - yupp! okay. set. I shall watch two episodes today ..? :\ Heh. wanted to post something really emo. but I shan't pull down the atmosphere. don't wanna pour the water into the fire, yeaa?

No title. He picked up the phone and smiled, His eyebrows twisted as if curious, in the same funny way he used to He put the phone down no, slammed it - with much rage. All I knew was it was since then He never spoke to me the same. I asked why. why, why, why? He replied, What he's lost Was the cream of his coffee the taste of his candy Now crying like a long lost baby It was funny that I remained cool in front of him clueless & innocent eyes that look straight into his Now he grabbed me by the wrist, to the living room used his two hands both palm faced, onto my cheeks till my face, like a goldfish I just stared blankly ... ... "I've lost the one.. I loved ." He said. - Adapted from "Best friend" by me. LOL. p.s. I was bored -.-

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Back at school and normal life. WOOT! I tried to make all the bad feelings go away for awhile. And yes, I went back to school. Apparently, some of my friends didn't even know I didn't go to school yesterday -.- my particular - so-called "just-made" - group of friends through my close friend. My "ex"-good friend didn't take note either. No, we didn't quarrel and broke apart. Time just did it all for us - we changed classes. I felt like a was taking leaps of things. I don't know.. mostly confidence or courage? I think that's what I lack in the most. I managed to calm myself down. Remember the 5 people you meet before you go heaven that show/movie? Some of you may have watched it before. It's really nice. Today's my first person was Cara - my classmate. I got to know her through.. well, just being there for her since.. I don't know when. All I knew was that I was pretty sociable in the beginning of the year. Hmm .. Well, I told her a