SICK . Sore throat (cough till sore throat), fever (go up and down, lowest = 37.8, highest = 38.3), lost my voice due to stupid phlegm stuck in my throat - and so, irritated my throat and I kept on coughing - and also leading to my bronchitis problem. Oh man, this sucks . And my dear "terms of endearment" show is not showing this weekend )))): Now got nothing to boost my happiness or look forward to as the following week is already my common tests.. *sobsobs* Other than I had to do my homework even when I'm sick today, I've got nothing else to say. I'm too tired. Man, barely 5 minutes on the computer and my headache is giving way. Oh wells, beauty sleep calls! bye. CHECKMATE! drAmAQUEEN .
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Confused; Dumb ... ; COWARD . Confused about my life; Dumb for being this way; such a coward! I don't know if I'm going towards the right path anymore!!!!!! I've done so much or too little; I do not know , I tried my best to do it - But have absolutely no idea if I did it right/gone the right path. I tried to follow. Am I following? If I am, am I following right? WHAT ON EARTH IS GOING ON????!!!!!?!?!?!!!! -@ Confused . I somehow feel like I'm living in self-denial... Am I gonna keep pretending? Putting that false act infront of everyone? YUME!! STOP DREAMING!! This is REALITY!! R-E-A-L-I-T-Y!! It's not a fantasy world. Exactly, am I even doing the right thing? I don't know anymore. My mixed feelings is corrupting my LIFE!! What am I to do? I feel stupid. I wrote that song that has the meaning of "peace". But up till now, I don't really get the true peace I get from Him or do I even know if I feel it? Did I use His Peace for my advantage? Taki
WHOA. BIG WHOA. The case about our school was FLASHED ON SCREEN!! :OO Oh well, shan't talk about it.. Hmms ... Tomorrow got physics and math test. Included in CA. GAHHHHH!!!! :\ Gonna study physics then practice my e math again. Sigh, sec 3 life - at least so far - is so boring ... OH yeah, I LOVE CORRINNE MAY'S SONGS!!! Yupp, I put her song (first one) on my blog today ((: I heard that song when I was.. in sec 1 I think . I know it's old .. But still, I find it real nice. MEHH!! I beter go study now. 6pm - er hu lesson with Dora :OOOO CHECKMATE! drAmAQUEEN .
At random (continuation from previous poem). The dark aura spreaded throughout the street Suddenly, I heard the sound of drums And the maracas following its beat Music played, I silently hummed What was this familiar tune? Mysterious yet pleasant Pictures flashed in my head, with the playing of that rune I somehow remembered, it's somewhat significant Then the tune changed My heart jumped as I realised I appeared in a clear room, furnitures nicely arranged Out of the innocence, I heard a grump When I turned to find out who it was I was being stopped From behind, a dice was tossed Then something popped Petrified, I did not move I heard a voice saying "Your sin you must remove A visit to the Holy King you'll be paying" What did the voice mean? To whom am I visiting? Who's the Holy King? Where on EARTH am I going? What is happening? Who was grumping? Where is this place? Why do I not see her face? Where had she gone? Was she not with me? I feel faint, I yawned My bod
MATHS HOMEWORK IS KILLING ME!!! DD; NUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is so maddening!!! That Mr lim really didn't teach this part . WELL, not exactly that he really didn't teach that part. Here's how it goes: 1: He teaches from the notes he gives us 2: Doesn't refer to textbook - AT ALL (A math AND E math) 3: Tells us to do homework from textbook (not a problem right? HPMH!) 4: ALL HOMEWORK NEVER TEACH BEFORE! 5: Found out methods from textbook and HIS TEACHINGS FROM NOTES ARE TOTALLY DIFFERENT . 6: Okay, I know he wants us to app
Is this reality? Is this how it's suppose to be? We used to talk all day and night Texting each other twenty-four seven Until you pulled the rope too tight And I let go because I was craven We went to each others' house Til we complained too many times That minor problem handled in touse Costed her cab ride more than a dime We do not feel guilty For certain things we do to each other But if it's worth a pity Of such things, we do pother Challenges ahead we faced together We braced ourselves one after another We still quarrelled when we're weary, Certain statements we often query It was that special place We used to gather We used to have our fashion craze Having fun altogether P hantasmagoric and mysterious A chimerical terrestrial reverie Our special place, of deliriousness That no one else can see We were exhausted Decided to take a break Under the sun, we were toasted We had sunburn and bodyaches I opened my eyes widely in anxiety Was it for real? Could it be? This
I'll make this short and snappy. School > esthers and dorcas's meeting (I'm esther) > Came home > ate mi goreng (I didn't eat lunch, and I was starving ... I don't think I'll be able to eat my dinner cos I just ate it and it's..? 5.51pm. Right.) > Rushing to guzheng class later . It's gonna be the last guzheng lesson after so long.. and well, it seems like graduating from guzheng DD; But seriously . it's just stopping awhile -.- Btw, Dora totally forgot about yesterday's er hu lesson xD HAHAHAHHAAAHAHHA!!! Okay. And now I gotta run and change and all that . GAHH!!! :\ CHECKMATE! drAmAQUEEN .
Recluse. Btw, I've found out that it's spelled as f-l-a-b-b-e-r-g-a-s-t-e-d, means surprised greatly. And I got a feeling I've used it wrongly --" I don't know why I feel this way, or actually used to feel that way. Felt like trying out for the solitary life. NGYYA!! What has gotten into me??! Favours. To do it. And do it right. Incongruous. Craven to do it for someone. At times I feel weak, I can't do anything right . I try to help her out, but I fail to do so. At times I attempt to do it, but still fail, I tell myself to persevere, keep moving forward, and don't look back. At times when I do look back, I feel tears rolling down my cheeks I begin to cry uncontrollably, as I saw a trail of unpleasant tracks. At times when I break down into pieces, I thought you weren't there. But in fact, It's those times when I'm feeling down and weak, you gave me the biggest hug just like I gave my teddy bear. I used to really think that I wasn't importan
You pierced right through my heart What must I do to make you realise what you've done . It really was meant to be a big xxxxxxxx.. But you had to do it . I didn't talk to him ever since then because I thought xx xxx xxxx. I cannot take it. I don't even trust u even USE the freakin BOOK . I'm THROUGH WITH YOU . Gonna ignore you . Ugh . I'm so freakin' pissed!! One moment I was so happy, came home and practiced all my instruments except guitar and er hu . Then I did all my homework, and I even thought of the new song that I wanted to write, well, it's tune . and when I finally use the INTERNET, that message totally burst the BIG PIMPLE on my face. It felt like somebody just pierced me through my heart . I'm "flabbergasted" or however you use/spell that . I'm super terrified and pissed and shocked and angry and I have no idea what else to say. No, I am NOT gonna talk about my day, because day in school was freakin' boring and the only pa
Inhale&Exhale . I can finally relax, just because it's a friday But there's something to fax Then, afterwards I can play (: I LOVE FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Today was GREAT!! Well, not really much of the lessons part though =x Well, what I meant 'great' was GUZHENG!!! WHOOOO!!! Guzheng I rocks!!!! :DDD AHAHAHHAHHHAHAHA!!! Hmm, lessons were really boring . It's only been 2 weeks of school and I feel like it has already been 2 months in school . Two. simple. reasons: #1: Teachers are boring. #2: MY CLASS IS ALMOST VERY BONDED!!! ;DD I love my class. I love Zheng I. I love guzheng. WHOOOO!! And the best of all, THANK GOD FOR PUTTING ME THERE ;DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD HAHAHA! Okay, I don't have a lot of mouths DD; Well, hmm ... schedule: (2 periods) Chem right after assembly - Mrs Chong's gonna be away till May )); She's a really nice teacher. Well, she's gonna be replaced by Serene's sister!! :OO (1 period) Recess - YAYYYY!!!! We all got to eat together!!
FLARE I hate this day, no, this is the day that I'm least thankful of. At least give me a break.. Through stress and problems I've tried to pull through I'm getting the feeling of lonesome Do understand that it's tough for me too I've helped you since day one Him who is your light, brightly shone Many ups and downs we faced Still, ended up in such disgrace I was not only disappointed in you But my trust in you was gone too No confidence, low self-esteem First step was difficult, it very much seemed It was only later you understood My heart finally came to a rest I don't mean to be rude, There was another problem again - BEST. With every problem to handle My heart beat increases Anxiety grips my heart so tight I feel so breathless I know I want to help people But give me a break Like you said, I'm human too Please, do it for my sake I'm not asking much from you I hope you know every word here is true Sometimes I wish those incidents were fake C'mon, I
Anything for love I'd go anywhere for you Sail across the wide ocean Hike up the highest mountain too I'd do anything for you To help you in anything Even clean your shoe I'd do anything for love That's right, name it Anything from the sky above To the ground or lowest pit Well, today's "CONTENT" is definitely NOT gonna be talking about lovey-dovey stuff, thank you. I'm just really bored. See my schedule today in school: After assembly, 2 periods - Pure Geography (Teacher was not even there for the WHOLE two periods. Not in staff room either, I guess she was on urgent leave -_-) 1 period - Recess (Another slacking period after the free periods of "pure geog lessons") 2 periods - English (FINALLY something to learn today. In the end? Just talk about formal letter -.-) 2 periods - Service Learning (THANKS! SL STARTS NEXT WEEK! IN THE END WE DISCUSSED CLASS OUTING . sian ..... Mr Pang was damn gay btw xD) 1 period - Contact Time (Since Mr Pang w
A post without a poem (: Really, I have no idea what heading I should put, I guess that fits PERFECTLY {: RING DING DONG!!!! All time favourite song - currently ((: Hmm.. Let's see.. It's getting stressful as it approaches ... week TWO. Pathetic . I know . O well, what can you really do in times like this? STUDY . Yupp, same answer . HAHA . or not . I'm so so very happy that my song is finally original and nice and at least someone approves of it. Actually 3 I think. PLUS DADDY!!! :D Super happy!!! But I heard that my verses sound like one of don moen's songs. That was what my dad told me, I know he would never be wrong about it cos after all, he works in a christian shop! How can he tell me a wrong fact? Especially regarding music? GAHH!!! :\ I guess I'll have to keep thinking of another tune to it -_- So in the end, I guess .. hmm.. if can change a bit, I guess it'll make it more original? ._. Mann.. I really have nothing to say here .. well .. AHH! My schedu
Just one more post before I sleep ((: This video, recommended by chengxi . and by muah to you guys!! It's super cool . It's like mutiples of a person dancing . GAHH!! Only that it isn't!!! Do enjoy and I hope after watching these videos, you've at least lighten that heavy-weighed + stoned face of yours . HAHA!! ((: CHECKMATE! drAmAQUEEN .
I just wanna post this really stupid video that Mr Lim, our E math and A math teacher showed us . BTW: He's really random . While self-introduction and expectations of what we should be like in class, he distracts EVERYONE in the class by looking outside of the window to see the construction site and tells us detailed information about them. THEN, showing us this reallllllyy SUPER UPER FUNNY VIDEO ((((((: Happy watching! {: CHECKMATE! drAmAQUEEN .
Incorrigible I wish I can forget it all .. The past is the past It's all over now Memory covered in dust But it's still in my head somehow It's stuck there Ever since I let you go It grew bigger when I tried to stop thinking so Running away isn't the best solution Staying put isn't that good either I wouldn't agree to just anything I really hope I could get away somehow, further... Everyday when I see you Your face, your laughter, I feel like laughing too But then my mind Will always replay the past That will flash through my mind All too many, all too fast I wonder How much more I can take These memories make me shudder But I have to keep quiet for their sake The past is the past It really is all over now But it's difficult to get rid of It's stuck there somehow. Yeah, well, I just realised I'm better at writing the poems of my past . So.. bear with my a little . Whatever that I may write (upcoming ones) may hurt some people . Sorry. But if I find
My faith My dad said, "Believing in something that is not physically there is the toughest. That is FAITH ..." He said it was the toughest yet I didn't realise but wait - hear this first it's something wise (Below's story doesn't link to faith btw --") Once there was a jelly bean girl She was a christian Her hair was in twirls She was beautiful She had rules given by her family all those rules almost driven her really crazy She had to obey them by all means No dating is #1 rule given by Mr Bean She had to reject guys all those that had fallen deeply in love with her Or their stuff will be stolen -(I had no idea what to rhyme this with -.-) Two guys she had to consider Her charm was just unbearable She wonders how she could ever Break up with Tim and Chandler Both tall and handsome build and strong Tim always did math (geeeeek!) Chandler wrote songs Both were equally suitable Both were equally cute Both were irresistable But she can't date them - SHOO
Sorry long time no post =x I give up Each corner of my eye I can see your face flash by Of sure, I most definitely can't deny I love you too much that I need to pause awhile to cry I decided to run far away At least, away from you There I avoided you, There I stayed Then I met someone new along the way He let me join his crew "Ahoy! Matey! Welcome aboard You're welcome to stay And leave when you're bored" He was kind and nice, But he wasn't my type I liked someone with a little spice.. And so I moved on As I kept going on this long journey I feel trapped Hurt, and so very curious To find out this strange mystery But when one says "Curiosity kills the cat", I guess that's what they meant when I saw a dead, stinkin' bat wearing a red and bloody hat I've finally realized it all, that this was all a stupid trap A stupid trap I should not have fallen into And now all I have is you It's you I've been wanting to deal with from the start