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Life Update III I could be blogging more because it's the holiday season and I miss the feeling of typing out a chunk of words, but... I am very glad to record it here that I had a happy dream last night. The dream was full of resolve from my past hurts and hope for a brighter future from here on out. Was it the meds? Was it that I finally begun doing my quiet time? Was it the events of that day? Was it my happy hormones screaming out because I might get a cat soon? Could it be all of this? Perhaps. I'm just happy . And it's rare. So I'll take it all in while I can.

Life Update II If there was any major obstacle to overcome, I'd say it'd be my childhood. Who knew I'd be spending my 20s trying to recover from it? Recently, I felt God telling me about the importance of His Word and the church. I've never felt so far away from my faith before until I heard my youth leader and pastor's sharing recently which struck a chord in me. The devil uses what is seemingly right to destroy my relationship with God. I should've known when I felt weak to even sing worship songs to God in church last year (I kept feeling overwhelmed). The daily battles don't get easier when layers of my childhood slowly peel off like an onion. Losing Orlie is something I can't even begin to imagine happening, yet I know death is inevitable for every living creature. Life is complicated. I am tired. I am dumb. but I can't give up because there're people who love and support me, there're people who believe I can g