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I'll be there for you . I know you're really upset that I told you not to sms me . You must be wondering how "ungrateful" I am, probably .. because of my ignorance to you . Well, it doesn't mean I won't help you with your problems anymore . I'm willing . I'm willing to get scolded smsing you because I'm helping someone . It's worth getting scolded for . I really don't mind . I just don't wish you to emo again . Honestly, I'm sorry if my tone's a bit harsh to you, in a sense, but, it's very irritating to be around someone emo . Meaning, no matter how much I tell the person to change, just one step out, and the person refuses, and stay in the knuckleshell and emo all day long . It's really fustrating . And you should know that because you've done it with me before . CHECKMATE! drAmAQUEEN . Stress in exams . Geography paper was really difficult . Today was Literature . It was much better . Though I really REALLY had no

I am so freakin' happy and sad and worried and scared and angry and anxious.. ALL AT THE SAME TIME . Gosh . What's wrong with me? I'm happy 'cos I'm getting contact lens soon, maybe tomorrow (just making it) . I'm sad 'cos my guzheng teacher is leaving this week )): I'm worried because I'm afraid I might not be able to finish my studying/mugging in time before exams!!!! I'm scared because by then, I'd FAIL . gosh . I'm angry because of some PEOPLE ...... I'm anxious because of everything . but I still hear the verse from Matthew, yet, I'm NOT applying it .. WTH IS WRONG WITH ME??? no motivation . right . This sucks . CHECKMATE drAmAQUEEN .

RULES: - Tell 100 Truths - Tag 5 people after( I changed it cause its in blog) - They do the same back to you 5 people you are tagging(either post on blog, or email if no blog) 1. Whoever visits my blog 2. Whoever visits my blog 3. Whoever visits my blog 4. Whoever visits my blog 5. Whoever visits my blog 1. Last beverage → Barley, 2. Last phone call → Mother 3. Last text message → Zoey 4. Last song you listened to → Panic - BSB 5. Last time you cried → Forgot . Whoops! SIX HAVE YOU EVER: 1. Dated someone twice → No 2. Been cheated on? → Probably yes . Don't know . 3. Cheated someone else? → I feel, maybe yes . 4. Lost someone special? → Yes 5. Been depressed? → Yes, used to be super emo . 6. Been drunk and threw up? → No LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS: Black,White, Green followed by other colours HAVE YOU: 1. Made new friends → Yes 2. Fallen out of love → Uh? Ye ne...... anio..... uhhhhh.. 3. Laughed until you cried → Yes 4. Met someone who changed you → Yes 5. Found out who your true

Post on twitter by Eunice Chong . Credits go to strawburry17 . This video is AWESOME!! ((: CHECKMATE! drAmAQUEEN .

TOMORROW IS THE START OF EXAMS I have no other comment/event to talk about :D CHECKMATE! drAmAQUEEN .

I was in a coffee shop . Walking towards it, I saw two boxes . out of curiosity, I walked towards it . This is a box all white with small black poka dots I opened it and it looked like apples that were gonna rot I moved on to the next box .. This is a box all white with no poka dots I opened it and there I saw the future of one's destiny White and Gold it was golden pavements, white clouds, soft and golden counches white table, golden chairs But I felt something was wrong Suddenly the image swirled into a blackhole sounds of laughing and mocking of the people and crows echoed As everything around me was being sucked into the blackhole Slowly, I, too, was dragged along Then I heard a voice A voice that somewhat seemed familiar I cried for help and I saw a figure, I saw a hand touched it and everything went back to normal I was at the same spot and the time when I was staring at those two boxes .. Face as pale as a sheet As I stared into nothing .. but the red-brick walls .. and noth

Irregular Yikes .. irregular . Doesn't it give an ugly impression to you? Oh well, I was kinda bored.. uh... I wrote a poem . Jealousy Here I am With my dark suitcase Weighed with missing pasts That were gone without a trace Here I am The unforgettable place At my desk where I used to have chats all that's left now is dark memories of my fullest regrets Here was where I started Right from the beginning I remembered by eyes darted at the sight of the man whom I found most charming Leticus was his name London was from where he came Tall and young Bold and bright blue glimmering eyes that most probably'd shine at night Then came Christy with her wonder gang took his hand and stole my man There she stood, Tall and slim Tanned and pretty a bitchy personality and still so petty She started to go out with him She started to hug him She started to kiss him when all she did was to play with him Her blonde hair blinds me Her scream kills me Her words agitate me Her laughter irritates

It was a sad night yesterday//TIRED TODAY DD; Yes, it WAS a sad night yesterday. I cried . I wanna say a word of thanks to someone who truly comforted me yesterday: Well, thanks Jelene, for yesterday night . I know you were kinda tired and was about to sleep, but when I asked if I could talk to you, you called me . And so I told you everything and I cried halfway through . Maybe I really was taking everything too heavily, I know the partial reason is due to stress, at least I do acknowledge that already . so.. well, I just wanna say that I'm really thankful for what u did to help me yesterday night . I'm so glad God spoke through you, He really is my true comforter, you too(: I liked your message that you sent to me today; "hey=) hope u r feeling much better. anw, i saw something for u . which is, PRAYER is not overcoming GOD'S reluctance, it is laying hold of HIS highest willingness" And I kinda agree on it . Though I was confused at first, it sounding almost s

8 days ..... Yea that's right . AWAY FROM THE COMP. FOR 8 DAYS!! LOL . JK . You can just read the testimony below :D Just didn't post for 8 days . EIGHT LOOONNNGGG DAYS . Okay, I know I sound stupid k, but till now, I have no idea what the heck cliche means . Or is that how you guys even spell it? =.=" Sighs . And .. well, this is .. the week that I tell my parents about my results.. And also, study+homework+practise guzheng and piano week, yeah? Sigh . I still left FOUR homework.. so screwed man.. not done studying geog. too .. I'm left with two more topics ._. AND .. well, don't know about you guys, but I still have history, physics, chinese to study .. AND .. on the first day, it's CHINESE . Gosh . This means I need to finish all of the rest of the subjects so that I have "fresh" memory of the chinese cheng yu, yan yu and guan yong yu stuff .......... oh jeez -.- Sigh . gastritis problem back again, my mum AND MY CHEM teach said if I keept havin

OHMYGAWD . I'm so pathetic -__- HERE IT IS!! MY BIRTHDAY .. YET, I'M AT HOME .. ALONE .. WITH ORLIE .. AND THE FOUR WALLS TO ACCOMPANY MY HAPPY DAY . Supposed to meet zoey and jia hao at macs( ZOEY SUGGESTED ), but jia hao couldn't make it . Then I ask zoey go . She ask me whether wanna eat anot . I said maybe . She come tell me she no money . Then I ask her wanna come my house anot, it's so friggin' near anyways . She forward some msg to dunno who and who plus me, saying she NOT MEETING ME . Thanks . I SO NEEDED THAT ONY MY BIRTHDAY . JUST WHEN I WANT TO CELEBRATE IT WITH SOMEONE . NOT A SINGLE PERSON IS THERE . except orlie . See? this is why orlie is so close to me and she's my one and only ALL-TIME BEST FRIEND OF MY LIFE OKAY!! (For the years that she live T.T) Sigh .. I woke up, read my book, fell asleep again . Woke up again, ate my lunch and played guzheng from 11am+ to 1.10pm . Still pissed off about the fact that I'm not celebrating my birthday with

MUGGING//CORRECTIONS//9 PAPERS IT'S MADNESS!!! Timetable for the week (plus this week, today): Friday//4 September - chinese corrections - study physics - do chemistry homework (one sheet) Saturday//5 September - Celebrate my birthday (which, to my surprise, I'm not really looking forward to it) - study physics - revise all topics of biology Sunday//6 September - study geography - study physics Monday//7 September - got guzheng lesson at ARTS , 1pm - physics paper section A paper - math paper 1 paper - study geography - study more physics - play guzheng (6pm, song is "Chun Dao..") Tuesday//8 September - got guzheng in school, I think 1-3pm? - study geography - study physics - physics section B paper - math paper 2 - play guzheng (7.30pm, song is "si duan jing/jin") Wednesday//9 September - math paper 3 - study chemistry - study geography - distinction in english pg 197, including summary - play guzheng (6pm, both songs) Thursday// 10 September - got guzheng

MANY TOPICS: *UPDATE* Composing: ( p.s. can't think of a title ) Intense starting, soothing, classical with a bit of tension here and there. Reason why I composed it? Well, it was the time when I was feeling really vexed, confused, fustrated . Almost to a point where I don't even know if that simple matter is right or not . Combination of family matters, friendships, relationships ... It's the part when I thought everything was at its place, but just then, trouble comes and destroy my so-called "happy ending " or moment rather . And when it happened so often then I go used to it . Felt so nonchalant towards it . Until God spoke to me, telling me of why I should SIT HERE AND SULK? Shouldn't I be seeking God's help?? Yeah, and so .. I did . And well, I'm halfway there, that's what I'm glad to say (: Yeapps.. but anyways, this song is about the tension .. yeah .. Inspired from many songs, but especially the one on my IT blog? haha . Don't ask