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When things get out of hand, you ... Flush your head down the toilet bowl Jump off the building Cut off your finger Scream Throw things all around the house Tear/shred pieces of papers exercise ...? I'll tell you what I did, oh I'll tell you! nothing. Man. just doing nothing's tiring work. seriously! It's not as easy as it sounds like! but.. yeah ... Well, had cell outing! :D:D Subway for lunch and .... bowling, followed by arcade!! :DD Played some crazy bangbang game with eunice - the monsters were horrifyingly coming at you, it seemed seriously impossibly true that we got to some boss stage -.-" Later played para para with rach!(: haha! vs reg and eunice~~ AWESOME!! :D Hmm .. then everyone headed for service and eunice nearly slept -.-" She was like, "Eh, Vanessa, Vanessa .." Then I was like what? Then cos when I said "what?", I turned my head, with my shoulder slightly leaning on hers then she said, "okay, stay like that, DON'T

Sick. His blessings are like rain They wash away all the pain & the sin, Like every full raindrop that splatters on the floor Rain down on me There's enough for everyone -plenty, As long as we're all happy. Pretty tired today. Went with the aunties to shop for christmas decorations. Felt pretty extra though. As in, I wasn't even in the team. Whenever I'm in the shop, they leave like.. after less than 5 minutes of browsing without telling me. Then when everyone's missing, they didn't even bother asking where I went -.- Just now, when we were ALL in the same shop, less than 5 minutes - AGAIN , I repeat AGAIN - all of them left to the floor below for coffee, all but my mom and auntie janice. Oh THANKS. My mom was with me, busy ADMIRING the decorations. tsk. aunties. Poor auntie janice came out of the shop only AFTER my mom called her out. And later we then found that they were downstairs. thanks. I felt pretty .. extra and annoyed. I didn't carry much thin

The weather's gone bazzaarrrr ... Today's intense revision/lesson was.. well, a little boring. Ms wong was really cute and funny. It was the first time she taught my class - and I'm pretty sure 3B3 as well. Had cca. Came home. Too tired to type anything else. ending off :\

My eyelids are to heavy to be lifted =.= In the morning I was very much energetic though. Today in school, my class did really... really.. crazy things. We played games. Well, most of us did .. and I just decided to join in the fun (: We played mrt in a small group. Then - VERY UNFORTUNATELY - Jiaxuan sat beside me. So when someone said Serangoon , my right lap always have the feeling of many knifes cutting through my skin which left burning sensations afterward. Thank GOODNESS hwee jia - sat on my left - wasn't THAT hard(: Kerine killed me in pepsi 1,2,3 -.- Like, TWICE. And I forgot who - whether it was dayna or cara who - bang me dead in the game of bang bang bang. And I the stupid bottle pointed at me in the game of dare & double dare and I had to do a double dare - relating to Mr Teo - and how embarrassing it was -.- BOB STILL VIDEO-ED IN DOWN!! DD; how embarrassing ... Took back my report book today! And some disgusting book - don't even ASK. Had a one-to-

It is yet, another boring boring day ): Mostly slacked in school. Watched silent bleach in class. Some issue on the breaking into our classroom through climbing through a hole made by don't know who .. supposedly filled by 2 window panels. Then it went missing for nearly the whole year but came back just today. But only one "came back".. Hmm .. And just this morning Anna lost her file.. So.. yup. theft taken place again. Sigh, seriously, just WHO IS THE THIEF?? Went to sign up for jap classes with sheryl :D Then got the student card :O I've gotta study real hard for this one, I wanna show my mom I've got interest so that she'd not be disappointed :\ Jeez, I think without the "I wanna see you report card" - aka results, was really pressurizing. Like, I was all set, ready to go with the confidence in me that I'll have no prob with it. Then there she HAD to go, saying that she'll be looking at my results for the jap test :\ oh dear .. Today I f

Tired .. Trust and assume is not the same. TRUE OR FALSE ? Actually I've been pondering about that question since I think.. about 30 minutes ago? Hehs. I thought it was pretty distinct, but later on after I kept listing the similarities and differences, I don't know if I got confused.. or what .. but they seem rather like the same. But I guess I was later on comparing assumption with OVER -trusting. I think. or something like that ... Oh wells, today's a really really long day .. During chem lesson, we did a survey and practically SLACKED. Then english was next - for 2 whole periods - it was pretty boring most of the time cos she let us watch the debate show -_- aka continuation of dunno how many many weeks ago that we watched. I didn't exactly watch it cos of it's lousy graphics -.- But towards the end, she showed us a video - something that's got to do with NS . It's SUPER DRAMA MAMA ! hahhahaha! Then PE was next. apparently, pe teach didn't know there

Bored. It's official BOREDOM DAY . This morning had some funny videos to watch made by our beloved sec 3s! :D The winning teams, of course. Then had the inter-class games. The games were awesome!! :D and.. I nearly got hit by a ball -.- I think it was 3A2 or 3A1 that was playing at the court where I sat beside. It felt as if like you know, ichigo avoiding the many many many many many hits by Ulquiorra? madness. I COULD SEE THE BALL AND I AVOIDED IT. I was VERY VERY pretty it wasn't instinct. Though coincidence, I still think it's pretty cool. I totally saw the ball going to pass me then I moved my head away and the next thing I knew when I turned back, the ball hit someone's leg - I think - and move towards the podium (beside & behind me). Oh well, cool. Later was dismissed for lessons. Sighs. now it's back to curriculum timetable. oh man .. it's really boring. Mr math teacher came late and rushed through everything. He's totally heartless! ): Ask him th

Back from church/dinner! (: Weekends pass so quickly D; What's on my mind now? Hmm .. I guess it's that I'm worried for the people taking their Os. Don't know why. But when I put themselves in my shoes, imagining me next year.. at this point of time .. +_+ brrr... scary. Two times as scary as PSLE. At least that was what I felt .. before I sat for each paper .. Finally made my taps of bleach songs! :D Apparently, I didn't download all.. so .. yea. pity ): 'Cos im currently saving some space for more games :D:D Hmm ... Today was great. Seriously. But Auntie joyce was talking wayyy to long. I could hear her. Really. But my eyes were closing -.- So I wasn't that fully concentrated :\ But I guess God spoke through me to keep me awake - in a sense - when she was talking about the RED-BLUE thing .. Apparently, the word blue kept popping up in my head. And sudden thoughts on how many blue things I had and like the fact that I suddenly liked blue struck me. And the

Th' Night's chilly .. The thought of many things rushing through my mind gives me a throbbing headache. Or a split one. Whichever. I just .. I don't know. It just flows through my mind is give a constant electric-shock through my entire brain. Usually, that's a good thing - but not when it's constantly doing that, it DOES hurt you know. Had cell today and pizza for dinner. Apparently, after cell and the slacking at nat's place, Damia, Eunice and I walked to Fajar LRT and went separated ways after arriving at choa chu kang.. And Damie said he had a tummyache and thought it might be the seafood pizza - which, apparently, he said he didn't like it. It would seem that I was having a tummyache too. As I sat in the MRT train - red line - I opened up my book to read, took out my itouch and listened to Life by yui. Don't know why, but I think the chorus has gotten me hooked onto the song :\ But the thoughts just kept rushing in. You may ask what? But I can'

Deep trouble It's not my thoughts doing the thinking It's not my lips doing the talking It's my heart making the decision And my hands doing the action Each time your name is called out My ears would open slightly To hear what it's all about By the corner ever so silently Edging towards you Day by day You listen to all of problems You make my worries go away I long for you to be my close friend or rather, a very special friend I had this special wish for a long time I'd wish you'd hold my hand I'd picture your face Each night before I turn in Longing for your embrace I end up tearing I'd wish I'd stop being like this Whenever I'd encounter such feelings But it's something I cannot resist Always having a hard time suppressing I'd never wanted to be this way I'd never wanted to restrict you I'd never wanted to say this today Even though you have no clue .. I'd just wish for the same in return 'Cos for you, time, I'd burn

oh, yeah, here's a few videos~ it's just so.. weird.. to hear bells as background music .... THESE EPISODES ARE EPIC. Ep 217 Part 1 Ep 217 Part 2 Another super epic one.

Special K .. Heard of it? I bet those who watch television sure did. Well, now I don't really see it advertising anymore.. It's either me that I seldom turn to channel 5...? or ... they just stopped o.O Anyways, that's my lunch -_- Gonna eat it soon. Today felt kinda paranoid I guess. But I really don't know why seeing that I have nothing to be vexed about :\ Probably it's just due to lack of sleep I guess ... Slept during the workshop and was uber tired. We were split into groups and well... I "grouped" them with these CHOICE of words, "Laughing for no reason", "Having war", "Sleeping row", " doing their own thing row 1" and "DTOT 2". Yeaaa.. Must've guessed which group I belonged to eh? haha! Then when I just woke up - whereby I missed the last quarter of the workshop, and rather spent the time to enter the dream world, which, unfortunately, failed - Cara went totally crazy (she sits infront of my des

Sigh? Just reached home after that LOOOONNNNGGG lecture from Ms Gan. Well, to the whole level of course. I mean sec 1-3. It was extremely TERRIBLE . She practically made us stay back for almost 30 minutes .. Anyways, I'm back home now. Bored. Gotta go practice guzheng later before my sister comes back :\ sian .. guzheng lesson tomorrow and saturday. my gosh. I think I'd be worn out by the end of the week! But thankfully there's God to give me strength! :D Hmm .. what else? Don't know. Gonna go BLEACHING (: Washing @ cloth #209~ -back- Stopped washing @ cloth #212~ Can't wait to wash 213!!!!!! :D AND NO, IT'S NOT A SPELLING ERROR (: lil' boy from upstairs came to play with orlie when I was about to practice guzheng :\ Oh well, just would like to post about today .. And I just realise I didn't post about school ..... Well, first programme was dance (: Everyone was anxious, happy, excited, bochap about it when we all arrived in the shaw hall. We then star

I guess .. I've been wandering for too long My imagination runs wild It keeps telling me I'm in the wrong I feel very much like a child Your voice overpowers mine You get up, I recline A person far too different from others One who hides her face, curl up in darkness They always say They've screwed it up But they had no idea anyway Of how well they actually did As compared to mine I'd get up within a second My legs turn into jelly the next And I would fall , I reckoned NO DOUBT . It's depressing demoralising to hear their fake comments whilst in their minds with scornful remarks Covering their devilish thoughts saying otherwise Yet again, nobody knows how this feels like - How I feel For they've never gone through it before They don't hate it to the core like I do . This feeling of always losing This feeling of knowing I'm never winning Minor setbacks that keep me lacking behind I could just curl up in a corner, crying. I guess yesterday before I sle

Innovation week presentation!! It all started with this morning .. there was this prize presentation thingy. And I was thinking of "sky chord" again :3 Hmm.. oh yeah, that led me to the thought of unagi and ZUNZUN! the teacher called out a girl that sounded VERY VERY similar to unagi. haha! Presentation was rushing. It turned out my group lasted less than 2 minutes. Seriously. But despite the fact that I knew i was the jinx that screwed the whole group again, well, I guess I did enjoy myself the last few hours :\ Anyways, currently at zo's house now, hehe! brb. (maybe blogging again at night).

Hahas, what I see nowadays are becoming BLUUEE!! Gosh. Maybe that’s why I switched my favourite colour to blue :\ Oh yeah! And while we were all at Marina Barrage, we saw Mark Lee, that actor. Apparently, I think he was the director at that moment, filming some stuff.. And during the “tour” the tour guide showed us around and well, surprisingly, we were all kinda fascinated ._. Hmm.. oh yeaaa!! She told us about 4-5 bride and bridegrooms go there to take pictures. But today, in approx. one hour, we saw 7 brides and bridegrooms ._. whoa. HAISHHH . Jeez, today write a lot ah. Haha! Alright. Cya~

Gross. All sticky today. Hmm.. in the early morning, it was all warm and humid. Then in the afternoon was downpour.. evening SUPER HUMID! and at night? quite cooling~ Oh well, that's the "weather 'fore'cast" today. Mine's screwed. yah, till I'm all "wet" with perspiration. gross, I didn't even exercise -.-" Unless walking is counted ._. Anyways, have been bothered by a few things before and after the incident. I was wondering how and why then, till I found out and well, I was quite .. surprised at the reason. Anyway, I'm really sorry. I didn't know. Hah, I guess I really am a human repellent (: That figures why I don't have long BEST FRIENDS ..

Just reach school.. After the marina barrage trip. Jeez. All sticky -.-

Oooooooooo another slacking day yeaaa? Just that I guess today's a bit busier .. And well, thanks to Wendy (the best!!! For all the drawing - hard work, etc). And of course my group mates: shyamala, amabel, crystal and rebecca. AWESOME DAY!! (: thank God for everything! I didn't picture it to rain today .. but, well, glad it did! ;D

My days alone My days alone now are odd They are longer than usual My eyes are never dry At any point of time or moment Nobody knows what's on my mind Nobody will find out even with time on their side they just think It's all a puzzle to fix All a puzzle left undone And a piece just gone missing & nobody knows it's much more It's much more than that And I'm glad to say My long-term goal had been achieved today All my close friends hate me now All but two I gotta shoo them away soon I'm too much of the black, won't suite them much anyway As happy as it sounds it's funny that I feel this way in my heart that shattered into a million pieces Even smaller pieces ripped apart The time I feel this miserable This day that I'd hoped would be different Joyce said she love Sundays I do too But with this, Far too memorial, it's just so beautiful unique, special and unforgettable I love Sundays too Because no one will bother me Then I will bother No other

Gibbon There shone the white moon Miraculous it may seem to look Almost complete, but missing something It's missing a part, to make it whole. Yes, I've not forgotten my science facts on the moon. A full moon is NOT equal to a new moon. A new moon is when you cannot see the moon. The full moon is a full moon. The moon cycle lasts for a period of 28 days .. etcetc. I've been thinking a lot lately. Whenever I'm quiet, I've been reflecting a lot. Today while my mom drove me to stephanie's house, and Orlie was sitting beside me ever so afraid she might fall, insecure .. I was thinking about what she said the other day. It may not be harsh when I just say that incident alone. But when I thought through it, it might've been what happened earlier - even the day before - that caused me to let this add on so that I may break down and cry or something. It's just like when u build a pyramid of cards then a light feather or a breeze just land slightly on or sweep th

Bitterness. The taste ever so divine Such craving never crossed my mind ever Before. I won't say I'm losing it 'Cos I'd be lowering my self-esteem I won't say I'm getting it either I'd be lying to myself as it would seem Here lying across the floor The sky'd turn dark and cry out, downpour! Ever so dull when'er I get home I'd then sing mellifluously, Shalom .. No other that I find comfort in Truly when they say they're friends for life But seriously, where have they been? They don't know the miserable effect No, she's not gone - yet I know some day she will Just like the others that had already left All orbits me, but I stand still I do admit, I am slow I don't like to rush I've had enough of this big blow I'm gonna forget it & brush it away. What's coffee without milk? What's a sweet without its proper taste? What's ice-cream without the cream? What's anpan* without its paste? Then again, what's a

Right now .. 'Cos it's just the day whereby papers and results come flowing to me, I guess the currents carries rocks too. Big, hard and sharp-edged rocks. ouch. The first came to me with a scratch. I never did realise that they'd penalize me for writing more than 150 words. three points GONE. 18 drop to 14.5 out of 20 for summary. Ms Lee marked our paper 1 compo scripts. She said until as if it was like the worst papers she'd ever read. I nearly died. Ms Gomez marked the situational writing.. She didn't exactly look serious. Turns out my situational writing was worse than my compo -.- The second was e math. I never though that I would NEVER REACH MY EXPECTATIONS. I know some may read and go like, "wth? I didn't even PASS." I know how you feel, but here, I'm talking based on EXPECTATIONS. It's demoralising when you wished you'd get an A1, and depended so much on it to pull up your overall average because you have subjects like chinese and c

It's Sunday! :DD It's been great! and I'm loving God! Why? because I finally found out what the gift of encouragement was! ((: Praise be to God that even though I missed out on identity camp, I still got the explanation for that gift :D I'm glad to know that I've been using it and super thankful for God that I have it. oh yes, I do need that ._. But anyways, I thank God mostly, for helping me so much and even meeting up to my high demands and even more. Well, in some .... ways. ahaha!! Hallelujah! (: p.s. I'm thankful for helping you guys. It's my pleasure God has truly blessed me (:

Ep 205. A really random one. I think it's funny :DD Part 1 Part 2

Friends do and don't .. Friends don't .. lie to each other keep from each other tell on one another tease each other bully each other back-stab each other keep their feelings from one another love Friends .. tell each other secrets share the glorious moments in their lives help one another; build each other up stand up for each other are open to one another truthful, trustworthy and honest to each other love We tell secrets to each other, why? We hold trust in the friendship. Trust? You mean like assurance that they won't tell on you? Yeah. Friends stand up for each other and build each other up. They do whatever they can do to help one another. Well of course, to do that, for example, helping a friend pull through a problem. You first have to get the FULL TRUTH/FACTS, analyze the situation, pray and think about what we can do - as a friend - to help. But of course, when the going gets tough, the other party just loses trust in the friend that helps, and well, it either win

New video~ I was watching on the animation of an american tail/tale and I saw one of the videos that popped up while searching for the video ... enjoy! (:

Now that exams are (almost) over .. I figured I can start watching anime :DD And soo ... I think this is the latest episode, and maybe the last, but I think it's super romantic!!!! =x (just checked and yeah, last episode.. NUHHH!! T-T) Kaichou wa Maid-sama Episode 26 Part 1 English Subbed Kaichou wa Maid-sama Episode 26 Part 2 English Subbed Advised to watch full screen x)

Today she weeps to sleep ..