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Jibbits! Guzheng prac and rehearsal didn't go very well. I hated the guzheng. Well, I mean, I didn't know until I played it. The strings were old, it was as if it was gonna break anytime. The first time I video-ed, I didn't do well at all. I know. It was because of the guzheng combine with some leftover nervousness in me. But at the second try, it was MUCH MUCH better because I changed 4 of the high notes strings - cos I was given more time to practice, so in the meantime I changed the strings. Thank goodness. I was still partially disappointed. Yesterday during the lesson with my lao shi, I had done so well, even though there were still little gaps of improvement to fill. However, instead of improving, my standard deteoriated. What a disappointment! Sighs. But anyways, I'll do my best, that's all that matters now. Tomorrow, Ming Fang will be competing at Singapore Conference Hall at 2pm. Guof and I will go down to support!! ^^ Furthermore, feel the atmosphere, and ...

*Moans* sobsobs. I couldn't sleep any longer. I woke up at 10am+, auto - even though i set my alarm to 11.10am. And guess what? Right at the next moment, I received a phone call from my teach, saying that there'd be guzheng lesson TONIGHT at 7pm. oh dear. and I gotta bring my thumbdrive and camera along with me. Sighs. What a way to start my day. all gloomy -.- Hmph! Nevertheless, I've decided to enjoy till 3pm before practicing - before guzheng lesson at 7pm - and so, I decided to watch K-On! (: Following up: One Piece! yeah! I've started watching it again. I like the feeling when I watch it. Always boosts my confidence somehow (: Alrights. I'd better get going~ -Sighs- I typed a bunch of crap here just now, but I'm too fed up to type it all out again because my laptop didn't copy what I typed just now. Or rather, SAVE TOO. So I'm just gonna say, I recorded two times. And well, since I can't upload it on blogger, I'll be uploading it on my tumbl...

I have decided .. to follow Jesus! I have decided .. to follow Jesus! I have decided .. to follow Jesus! No turning back.. No turning back .. Just that, well, it's not that. I've decided to go for tomorrow's games day and give support. YES, PAUL , you've succeeded in your persuasion in making me go for tomorrow's games day :\ Oh well, can't give all credit to him. In fact, I think it was today's practice that made me all pumped up about tomorrow! :D Can't believe I'm saying this, but I'M SO READY FOR THE FUN! :DD But seriously, the thought that it might be muddy - or rather, it WILL BE anyways - just gives me the grossed out feeling. I'm really afraid I might step onto a snail or something. There'd be that *CRACK* sound and I'll NEVER PLAY FOR THE REST OF THE ENTIRE GAME. Hmm.. I liked today's cell(: It made me do a lot of thinking and well, answered some of my questions I've been wanting to ask - which I actually thought, wel...

News this morning. YOSHHHHH! I'm done with the 1000-piece anime puzzle of vampire knight! ((: Would take a picture once I frame it up .. Have yet to buy the frame -.-" Hmmm .. actually wanted to get the one with all the guys. haha! x3 They're really really shuai! But then again, the graphics weren't that sharp - not as sharp as this I guess - so I decided to choose this one instead. Anyways, Yuuki's still sort of the main character right.. so being the biggest person in the picture should be fine ...... okay, what the heck am I talking? -.- Hmmm .. Days have been quite fruitful and it would seem that I'm opened to more surprises! (: Thank God these are happening, otherwise I think I'd still be the doll sitting on the already-collecting-dust shelves. Because of some technical problem/error, guof can't take out the disk and I can't listen to my recording ):): Hmmm.. Anyhow, my recording today (supposedly at 7pm) is postponed to tomorrow at 6pm. Great....

It was awesomely slackish yet awesomely fun! Tasted some new-flavour of the day sandwich! Toasted in 90 seconds ^^ Hmmm.. Had satisfying comments by my teacher. Recordings presume on Thursday night after my guzheng lesson 5-6.30 .. 30 minutes break.. So.. 7pm.. Hmmm.. I think I'd be so worn out during lesson =.="

I've lost it. Sunken deep down my heart hits the bottom of the jar Now I'm being famous for all the frowns In the emotional town. The thoughts of the competition coming up makes me wanna puke. i'm serious. I think im having some really weird phobia or something. The thoughts that run through my mind when my teacher pushes me real hard .. "We have strong competitors.." says a friend. Strong? It's my first time, and not only is it in the Singapore Conference Hall, but with STRONG COMPETITORS?? "Our grading exams are not official ones .." or reknown, by the same friend. Then where do I stand?? I feel lost. I've already been psychologically defeated! Timid. Coward. They just pop up in my mind alternatively one at a time and sometimes, both together. My sis and I went out to make her contacts in Kovan. Before that, we were watching nickelodeon. They were showing iCarly and the next programme was Big Time Rush. They were funny, I gotta admit. My si...

SNNNNNNNOOOOOOZZZIES!! (: Really tired. Went to bed at about 12am+ but slept at 3am+ ): I think my insomnia probs are coming back! )): Then woke up at 9pm today. okay, 9.15am. plusplus :\ Snoozing button again.. haha! I'm really half disappointed at myself and half .. kinda proud at myself for my presentation during my guzheng lesson. I was disappointed because I was easily distracted and my heart and concentration wasn't fully in the song. I'm kinda proud because I managed perform much better than I thought cos my tummy was growling -.-" Gahh... so now you see why I was distracted :\ Hmmm.. It's alright! It was FULLY satisfied after I step foot in reg's school carnival~ TOTALLY SPENT MY - well, my mom's - WHOLE 10 BUCK ON FOOD !! :DD oh well, and "donations". But who cares? I ATE A CANDY FLOSS, SIZED BIGGER THAN MY HEAD !!!! :DD HOW AWESOME WAS THAT !!! ((: Took buses 76 and 158 to my place and totally watched tv throughout till...

Couldn't come up with a better heading :\ HEYY!! I've started on the third page of raindrops! (: So far figured out most of the right hand parts, now the left and the fitting in .... hmmm... I practically just slacked most of the day but oh wells.. at least I watched one piece! :D I stopped at ep 44 and it was about the ending of the vicious battle between luffy and shark cum human guy. Hmmmm .. the ending was really sweet. like, really really sweet (: Yupp.. it's about time I leave - for jap class, I mean. It starts at 6.30pm and it's already ... 5.47pm DD; BUT I CAN'T BARE TO LEAVE!! I WANNA WATCH MORE :\ And besides, dango song is making me feel all homey and not wanting to leave the house =x okay, i know I'm not making any sense. but oh well, can't help it. Talking about dango.. I haven't actually tasted one before! O.O LOOKS YUMMY ;P

Funny! but awesomely cool! :D Went to singapore conference hall for the practice/rehearsal with my dad and guof! :D Great supporters!! (: Hmm .. the atmosphere was.. it was just really quiet and just one small "plucking" of the string is amplified throughout the ENTIRE HALL. It was really cool. Too bad I only had a little time (30min) to practice. I managed to play all three songs though the third one "huan xiang qu" was not completed ): I think if I played all consecutively with three different guzhengs and not waste time tuning, I think I'd be done in about 20~25 minutes or so )): Gotta work on playing fast next time! (if there is a next time. i mean, competitin practice day ..) When I came back, all i wanted to do was relax and sleep! the day before yesterday was intensice practice of 6 hours and yesterday had the mini perf. thingy. WHOO! I'm tired. haha =x I do have to sound relaxed.. well, I just don't wanna end up being all tense on the day itself...

Yesterday, as in, 17 nov .. Woke up at 1pm+ and realised that it was wednesday. Had a mini perf at night. Guof's gonna being performing too. Sigh. It's not exactly a perf., but more of a demo. So I guess it calmed my nerves down a little bit. Hmm.. As compared to yesterday's "perf"/"demo" in front of my juniors & sec 3s, today's was way better! :D Hmm .. which reminds me ... CRAP! I DIDN'T TAKE MY MEDICINE TODAY! I mean, I only took once, but GAHH!! THAT'S NOT ENOUGH! crap -.-"

I've been robbed of my freedom today! ): 12-6pm. guzheng prac, includes playing in front of people ._. juniors mostly, and some sec 3s too. xiong!! but at least I got to overcome my stage fright .. well.. I don't know, with tiredness and anger and frustration cos my teacher said my guzheng was out of tune when - HELLO! - i checked, it clearly wasn't. crap! that means i an ('press') bu zun!! sighs. Hmm .. didn't go jap class today. was too worn out ._. IM ACHING ALL OVER FROM MY SHOULDERS TO MY ARMS TO MY HANDS TO MY VERY FINGERTIPS! T-T Ohoh!! REGINA CAME BACK TODAY!! FROM CHEEENA!! YAYYY!!!! :D & she came over to my place and before that she even called to tell me all about it - even at my house. NON-STOP! MUAHAHHAA!!! she's sure got funny, very happening and weird bunch of new friends she made during the trip! :DD Anyways, she went back home at 11+ meanwhile I nearly finished trying out the first page of raindrops ! :DD I became really glued to the so...

Sick. Just before night meets day Day sleeps with night Reflection on shimmering waters of the snake's body, The world vanished, with nothing in sight. gahh ... worst! lost my appetite. lost the ability to speak. like a soul beside a human being .. but not in it. I just feel like sleeping and never wake up.. know that feeling?

great day/ best day :OO Hmm.. It would seem I can't make it for the leaders' retreat DD; Yet again, it's guzheng's fault -.- pek chek!! really really!! Hmm .. I felt God's presence today and even if it's just for awhile, I think it's that very little words said by someone that injected some confidence into me. Well, all is well and I've been thinking and doing quiet whispers to God every now and then. Hmm .. I guess it's just something I've got to endure for now, to my own benefit anyways.. I mean, my competition practices and all.. Stress and pressure is down on my shoulders, but God always know how to lift them up! (: Hmm .. ohoh! completed jap homework! yeaaaa!!! oh wait. GAHHH!! BEN I THINK YOU FORGOT HOW TO TELL ME HOW TO DO THE LAST QUESTION!! Hmm......... oh yeah, and I exchanged ipods with my uncle for awhile, he's currently helping me do repairs and jailbreak -_-" So I'm currently using his spare one, 1g, 32 GB though. But...

HIGHLIGHT OF MY LIFE SO FAR. I'm really, really fed up over this. (im typing this only because after an sms sent by a friend, it suddenly poked a bubble inside of me and i had to let it out.) I hate it whenever guzheng timings get in my way of doing other things like not attending church events, or going out with my friends or something. But I get the most irritated with the church one. esp. when's there's a very important speaker! HELLO. i totally wanna call it out. I know in life, guzheng's not gonna be the only one I'm committed to. But seriously, right now. I totally have a shut out, huh?? I really hate it. I don't want my competition date to be on a sunday. i won't let that happen. no way. I really really really don't want it to happen. PLEASE, NO! Going out with my friends.. restricted too, huh? I really really don't know why, but please believe me, I really have no time to go out with you guys now. I'm under immense pressure. talk online...

Truly .. disappointing. I'm disappointed with myself. that's for sure. I don't know if I'd really serious about the competition anymore. At one point of time, I'm really nervous about the competition, so I "relax" and do other stuff like watch anime or spend time playing.. i don't know what, etc. At another point of time, I feel wasted. Like I could've practiced and point arrows at myself for not doing so and resulting in such a tremendous deteriorated standard of playing. I don't even feel like I'm grade 10! Like, wth?? I felt very disappointed at myself. It's like I want to excel so well in it. But the part when I think of me performing - or rather, COMPETING - on stage at the singapore conference hall where air-con is worse than 18 d.c. in my godparent's house, I. freak. out. I simply can't think of it! I'll run away from the problem by studying jap, watching anime, and so on .. I think this stage fright thing has got to...

SUGOI!:D Watched One Piece today till episode 21. Gonna be watching more later on! Had studied before lesson and wouldn't ya know? The lesson wasn't that bad after all! :D Although there's still that little prob.......... sensei's a meanie! haha, okay I sound childish :\ Hmm .. learnt and became a bit more familiar with the sentence structure > Jap. hurray!! :D Hmm .. and tomorrow I'm gonna die! yay! I've resumed guzheng lessons with my doom. And I'm probably gonna die tomorrow 11-12.30pm. Must come and bring all your flowers, kay? I'll tell you the hospital I'll be in and the ward no. too. ._. back to one piece~ next anime (after one piece): final fantasy

BLEACH 293 AND 294 IS TOTALLY AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT MY BLEACH 297!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ONE PIECE IF TOTALLY AWESOME!!!!!!!! AND AND AND FLUFFY'S AWESOME!!! AND GREEN-HAIR GUY TOO!!!! sheesh. hmm.. looks like the beginning parts of my hols. are gonna be occupied with anime marathon~~ Here's the list: - One piece, at least 33 episodes - Final Fantasy, at least 23 by this month! - K-On, at least hmm .. I don't know how many episodes, but I'll give the extreme minimum of 15 ._. Hmm .. Others I shall wait till my revision/homework are either done or nearly done. Can't get too hooked on anime :\ Besides, I've got a scary competition that awaits me DD; I DON'T WANNA GOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! T-T Anyways, I edited my anime list. a bit only. so yeah. eh-hem. yeah.

HOME (: Yesterday after jap lesson I was talking to Cara and said I'd stay at home today - like all day. And just relax. really, it helps. As in, doing nothing. Or rather, like today, I just watched harry potter all the way. I watched the order of the phoenix and half-blood prince one. Really interesting, since I'd forgotten some parts already .. Anyways, I planned to go to zoey's house today. I woke up a few seconds before my alarm sounded. Cramps again. Real bad. I stayed in bed all the way. I was really wide awake. But I managed to sleep somehow and when I was suppose to leave my house at 12.30 the latest, I woke up at 2.34pm ........ Anyways, she didn't exactly confirm that I could go anyway ._. Oh well, that's why I watched harry potter. Hmm .. cooked dinner and my sister is SUPPOSED TO GO MACS TO STUDY !! Math paper tomorrow - a levels. What's she doing now? sleeping -.- And here she reminded me that after dinner, to remind her to go macs to study. I just ...

I've decided .. To turn around, Walk away .. And forget everything about it. Hehs. tried out a new thing, title > poem. Hmm .. I'd say I've had a harsh day today. But I still found joy in everything that I did! :D School teachers were a little mad, but everything still went well, understood stuff - except physics. I couldn't really understand until the very end when my mind was finally clear from thinking about some stuff. Jap lessons were great. they were hilarious. there was much humour. teacher sabo-ed me, but it's good anyways, for my learning benefits. I'm glad I didn't feel the same way as I did last week! (: At least Cara was there to help me, yea? I mean, well, accompany me to chat during lesson time. And it wasn't as strenuous as last week too. Ate dinner with Cara and then went home to see orlie! :3 Ngeh. now I've got nothing else to do but watch anime! haha, oh well. I'm not watching that now though, got something else to watch. Hmm...

They're HILARIOUS AND AWESOMELY COOL! ((: Love the way you lie (mashup) by Sam Tsui King of Anything by Sam Tsui Don't want an ending by Sam Tsui JS's Let's warm up! Bubblegum song by JS (Janice & Sonia) Family guy - cool whip Family guy - Bird is the word! I'm not exactly sure why it's really funny, but I'm pretty sure it's fully retardeddd!!!!!!! This is the ultimate. I totally love this! Reminds me of the annoying orange.. somewhat. haha! My sis was telling me about these funny videos. Sure did cheer me up! (: AND I LOVE THE BUBBLEGUM SONG! POP, POP, POP, POP, POP, POP, POP, POP, POP, POP, POP, POP, POP, POP .... POP! :DD Do spread the word!! :DD Kay, I know that was supposed to be the last video, but I couldn't help it. I watched another video and well, I felt it CLOSELY RELATED TO EACH AND EVERYONE OF US :D

Cloudy days In this quiet area the winds travel in all directions, Blow away dried leaves, collected on the ground .. How convenient is your work, With that speed of movement What art you create With those graceful twirls you make with those leaves as they fly about But .. Look at the mess you've made you blew, swiped, brushed, all over the place The mess you've created The problem you've now multiplied; more complicated now and they won't disappear From the face of the Earth Until someone, like yourself, clears the old leaves by yourself. ~~~ This morning I think it rained and my synus acted up again. Physics lesson was really boring. I couldn't take it. My row - again - was thinking of what lessons to pon. I went home after math, which was after physics. I mean, physics > break > math > break. Yeah, during the second break. Was so tired. I'm starting to hate school now. I don't know why, it's really .. well, not much of a reason except the fac...

Tired )): Jeez, slept at 2+ this morning and woke up 8/9+ Well, logically i woke up at 8 - by my alarm .. but .. I always have this habit, of snoozing it. And since I set it to sound every 5 minutes, I snoozed it every 5 mins and my phone stayed in my hands for an hour, while I snooze it every 5 minutes. I think even my body got accustomed to it. the SLIGHTEST sound that I hear, my fingers take action =x Today, during morning service, the sanctuary was REALLY REALLY COLD!! Freezing man.. I think my synus acted up. But not really at that time, it's like on/off after the morning service. I was totally with the pastors in the beginning, part middle and end. They lost me off somewhere >. Soon after, looked for my benefactor - amazingly it fits your name perfectly. ben - efactor. LOL. okayokay, I'm lame -.- Hmmm .. got to learn even more about particles and other stufffffff ... sorry for holding you back, ben! :\ and sorry regina, for making you wait! ._." Well, after that r...

:j That's a smiley face btw. Hmm.. had "cell" outing just now. so sorry for the last min arrangments though :\ Oh well, at least some turned up :D Had an extremely embarrassing moment about the ice-cream on the floor? Did people stare? :\ uh-oh. ngeh. but I didn't really take note .. :\ Hmm .. well, don't know why but I feel extremely tired. It was only like .. about less than 3 hours before I stepped out of my house and I started yawning -.- And right now, my eyelids are just.. so .. heavy ... =.= Plan to watch bleach again though. I didn't get to watch till 290 the other time :\ Was busy doing other stuff. can't remember .. again . But I DID remember that.. um .. i stopped at .. um .. I think ...... 288? And currently am gonna watch 289! :D mmmmm ... - *checks* - yupp! okay. set. I shall watch two episodes today ..? :\ Heh. wanted to post something really emo. but I shan't pull down the atmosphere. don't wanna pour the water into the fire, yeaa?

No title. He picked up the phone and smiled, His eyebrows twisted as if curious, in the same funny way he used to He put the phone down no, slammed it - with much rage. All I knew was it was since then He never spoke to me the same. I asked why. why, why, why? He replied, What he's lost Was the cream of his coffee the taste of his candy Now crying like a long lost baby It was funny that I remained cool in front of him clueless & innocent eyes that look straight into his Now he grabbed me by the wrist, to the living room used his two hands both palm faced, onto my cheeks till my face, like a goldfish I just stared blankly ... ... "I've lost the one.. I loved ." He said. - Adapted from "Best friend" by me. LOL. p.s. I was bored -.-

enjoy. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uyCGk-6ygas p.s. embed disabled by request.

Back at school and normal life. WOOT! I tried to make all the bad feelings go away for awhile. And yes, I went back to school. Apparently, some of my friends didn't even know I didn't go to school yesterday -.- my particular - so-called "just-made" - group of friends through my close friend. My "ex"-good friend didn't take note either. No, we didn't quarrel and broke apart. Time just did it all for us - we changed classes. I felt like a was taking leaps of things. I don't know.. mostly confidence or courage? I think that's what I lack in the most. I managed to calm myself down. Remember the 5 people you meet before you go heaven that show/movie? Some of you may have watched it before. It's really nice. Today's my first person was Cara - my classmate. I got to know her through.. well, just being there for her since.. I don't know when. All I knew was that I was pretty sociable in the beginning of the year. Hmm .. Well, I told her a...

?? Kept me from going to school today It all started yesterday after school. No, to be exact, after I left my house for jap class 6.30-8pm. There was no cca yesterday. Apparently, I think it's because the time free in between after school and before jap class was the time for me to REST. No, more like take a breather. Upon meeting Sheryl and her friend - I forgot her name, you'll know why later. Cara was busy studying, so she couldn't make it today. I was late and well, they started eating already. That's when I felt a bit ..lonely. Her friend was busy talking to her, Sheryl was busy answering everything and adding spices to the conversation. While me? I had no idea who or what they were talking about. None of them even included me in the conversation, like telling me who they were talking about or what they were talking about. Then just excluded me out of the conversation like that. I never even got to ask Sheryl's friend's name. So i kept quiet and ate my wak...

Lyrics to new song, track #4. Sparks fly. The way you move is like a full on rainstorm And I'm a house of cards You say my name for the first time, baby, and I Fall in love in an empty bar And you stood there in front of me just Close enough to touch Close enough to hope you couldn't see What I was thinking of Drop everything now Meet me in the pouring rain Kiss me on the sidewalk Take away the pain 'Cause I see, sparks fly whenever you smile Get me with those green eyes, baby As the lights go down Something that'll haunt me when you're not around 'Cause I see, sparks fly whenever you smile So reach out open handed And lead me out to that floor Well, I don't need more paper lanterns Take me down, baby bring on the movie star 'Cause my heart is beating fast And you are beautiful I could wait patiently But I really wish you would Drop everything now Meet me in the pouring rain Kiss me on the sidewalk Take away the pain 'Cause I see, sparks fly whenever...

The new song's totally got me glued to your picture.

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