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Hope ;; Building up confidence, hope & trust in God.. It was really freaky . I realise that I was the last person to be tested on that day, as seen in the paper signing thingy . It's there for like, well, attendance thingy, sign against name lo .. Then I was brought to a room to practice . I SAW MY JUNIOR!! WOHOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! Man, she playing grade 5 and grade 6 . Bu cuo ma! (: Then practice and practice . her time o go outside and wait was 4pm . Apparently there was some delay and she went out of the room at around 4.15pm I think . Then mine oso delay . So instead of waiting 10 minutes before 4.45pm - I think - I went OUT at 5 pm ....... Then I sat there, still looking through the scores for 'si duan jin' ... Yong le was before me and while I was actually practicing, she told me that THUM wanna pass on this info to me : need to be prepared to answer some questions . He'll ask a lot of questions de . Then I damn scared, so I asked zhu lao shi . Then she tell me a lo...

GAHHGAHHGAHH :\ Tomorrow's the big day I guess .. GUZHENG EXAM .. Yupp. Well, just wanna say thanks to those who've been supporting me and all, thanks for the support even though it's built up to be more of a pressure -_- WELL, I'M REALLY THANKFUL FOR EVERYTHING!!! (: Today I went for service . I saw Daniel opperating the P.A. system . Well, he WAS in the PA room . Something or someone told me to attend that service . That little person in me told me that it was important to attend today's service . I didn't quite feel that way though . 'Cos when I went there, almost half of the entire adult cohort didn't COME . Like, blank . Seriously . Then I was asking myself - or God rather, -why am I here anyway? I don't see any "progress" or any hints or whatsoever . I come for what, you know? I should be practicing . Even though I so very much knew that I wouldn't since I was still quite tensed up about the whole guzheng-exam-tml thing . Then wh...

A boring day indeed .. Can you tell? The stuff that I do day by day gets lesser and lesser . Guess what? I did three pathetic stuff today: + Practise guzheng + Go for guzheng lesson + Watch anime (Clannad, all over again from season 1 ep 1 {: ) Oh wait, I forgot . Guzheng lesson was cancelled due to teach's ill.. issue .. Sigh . Lemme cancel that out then . + Practise guzheng + Go for guzheng lesson + Watch anime (Clannad, all over again from season 1 ep 1 {: ) HEH =P Bored -.-" Jap word that I learnt today: Betsuni . Correct? It means 'Nothing'/'none of your business' type of meaning .. Sigh . I'M SO BORED I THINK I CAN DO THIS EVERY MINUTE . CHECKMATE! drAmAQUEEN .

FRESHENING UP ;) There isn't much to do once you list it all out... +Badminton, slack a little afterwards +a little housework +plan for first lesson with Dora this friday morning 10.30am.. (I didn't do this though) +ANIME TIME!! +Lunch and Dinner. 5 things to do. Maybe play a little piano too .. Sigh.. as days go by, I feel like I'm beginning to rot soon -_-" Well... At least I had some liveliness in this whole "schedule".. So, badminton was the most fun {: Although, Amabel didn't come today ): BUT!! That doesn't mean it was all too gloomy for the two of us [Jelene and me]!!! We're not pathetic!! We met at Serangoon mrt before taking the train to Kovan station. Man, it was raining cats and dogs .. My specs. got wet almost everytime I walk under a narrow shelter. Jeez, what is wrong with the weather nowadays?? Stopped by Cold Storage 'cos she wanted to buy sweet and drink. I just bought barley ULTIMATE FAVOURITE DRINK OF THE ... um... SO FAR!!...

SOSSOSOOOO SORRY!!! I've been really lazy and tired and busy to post nowadays. I seldom even go online in maple =\ SORRY GUYS!! Haha, well, you wanna know what I did today? Simple. +Tried out Do You by Yiruma on the piano today . Within one hour, covered up barely one pathetic page . I know . Slow poke -.-" +OH yah, ate lunch too. +Cooked rice for dinner. +JUST POSTED EPISODE 3 in WHITE yet BLACK . +Now currently writing in my own blog. MUAHAH! Well, just wanna tell you guys two things. Firstly, NEVER EVER WATCH ROTT WEILER UNLESS YOU CAN TAKE BLOODY, VIOLENT AND HORROR SCENES. Yeah, that's like really sick . In case some of you may not know what I'm talking about, well, it's about this movie called "ROTT WEILER" . Seriously, it's scary . They show the rott weiler kill the lady right, bite the neck off, then bite the whole chest off, and take out the heart and eat it . ohmygawd -.-" Horror movie peoeple. beware. Anyways, whoever wanna watch it c...

V-VR-VROOOOOMMM!!! (Saturday) What does that sound like? Car . yes . and car = travelling . Jeez . I really did not have a choice whether or not to follow her .. Well, I'm talking about my mom yeah .. You see, yesterday I couldn't sleep again = insomnia.. And so, today needed to wake up at 8.15am -_- Mann.. and can u imagine I slept at like .. dunno 2am+ or 3am+ .. Then wake up at the sound of the alarm .. well, in the end I didn't wake up at 8.15am lah, I woke up at 8.30am. BUT STILL, 15 minutes wasn't much of a difference, I just had lesser time to washup and dress up before going to school to get my pre-ordered books .. When I got dressed up, I remembered that my school's discipline mistress, or whatever, told the security guard that whoever did not wear a school uniform, shall not be let into the school . SHIT . Then I walked back into the room to change -_- Soon after, my mom came home, looking rather .. well, let's just say she was in a hurry . She told me...

WHITE yet BLACK . I finally had someone from the outside world that decided to notice me in my small world ... I started to wear a smile every day I go for kindergarten. Fun. Joy. Laughter. I'm gonna play with a friend for the very first time. I won't have to be the one sitting alone in a table and sulk or go emo anymore. I can finally be like my classmates, play, gossip and do many other things with my new friend. I was so overjoyed that I even asked my mum if she could let me go to Sherry's house to play with the dolls that were the in things last time. It was about 10 months that we had enjoyed every single minute with each other. Then came the upsetting news that Sherry had to go back to Sydney as something tragic happened in her country and somehow affected her family too - I soon found out when my teacher was talking to Sherry's mom. It was the worst news that I could ever imagine. I could let Ma take away my dolls, my bed, my favourite sheep toy - that I named...

WHITE yet BLACK . There are many things in this life a little heart can't hold in .. Some have bigger hearts than I do . They can take it . But somehow, in life .. well, I'm not that .. "abled" - in a way - to do so . It was an early morning and I knew that if I were to force myself to sleep again, I'd grow more tired and would wanna sleep in the bed for the rest of the day. But then I remembered Mama said that if I were to become as lazy as Papa, she'd make sure she'd give be a different - not to mention disguisting - diet every day . I mean, who would wanna go through that anyway? I could feel my heart throbbing and head spinning. It seems like my mind's still fresh about the nightmare that I just had. I've always been having bad nightmares nowadays... Maybe, just maybe if once, I could do something to take my mind off ... "Elle!! You'd better get your butt here for breakfast right now! You hear me? This minute! Otherwise, breakfast ...

CLEANUP (: Taking out masking tapes and all .. with the help of aMaBeL (: Well, let's see . Started off the day by having three most weirdest dreams I've ever had in my entire life (as far as I've known - or remembered ) . I had a dream that Orlie mated a Mutt! Ur... more like a bulldog -.-" Then had puppies !! I opened the door to my room, I saw 4 puppies . I opened my sister's room and I saw another 3 puppies! and the parents there ... um ... haha . Then switch . I was woken up by my alarm . zzz ... After walking up subconsciously, I waited till the alarm went off (habit) then I got up sloppily to turn it off then bring it to the bed beside me . I could barely open my eyes . After replying all the smses, I fell fast asleep again .. after grabbing my bolster and wrapping myself up with the blanket . Then, I had my next dream .. I saw MILEY, talking to ME and she was having the worried expression and everything .. Well, the only person she could be talking to lik...

It's about "life" .. Nono, not some random thing like, "OH, my boyfriend or crush is cheating on me or looking at other girls .. I NEED HELP" -.- NOO WAY . thank you . The truth is, well, I think I've come up with STM . Short-term memory . loss . Right . I even forgot what I had for dinner yesterday night! Let's see, my mum remembers and I DON'T . Well, not until she told me, of course . Sigh .. well, if u're not "worried" in a way, WHY?! IT'S A CATASTROPHE! SHINGZ . or whatever . This means, I'll forget things almost instantly (daily) and I can't post properly . OHMYGAWD . Okay, I mean, why fret over such things right? Besides, what's the worst that could happen.. eh? Well, considering about the fact about STM, or amnesia - whatever you call it - I shall talk about today before I forget -.- Well, started off by waking up at 9.30am . I woke up @ 9.31am . Why? Because my alarm was probably too "soft" and my mum...

No comment .. I don't exactly feel excited, but probably desperate . I've been doing nothing but play maple, read my book, eat, talk, shit, pee and SLEEP . GOSH, my life is SO FREAKIN' DEAD . Yeah, so u get it . I'm just basically bored . BOREDBOREDBORED . HEY WANT A NEW WORD OF THE DAY? BOREDDDDDDDDD!!! Oh well, I seriously cannot take it anymore . After reading that book, "Air head" by Meg Cabot.. I'm so freakin' scared that I'd turn out to be a TOMBOY . YOU HEARD ME!! FIVE STAR MAIN REASONS WHY: #1: I LOVE playing video games . Except dota of course, well, being an artistic person loves good graphics, I just don't like dota's graphics :\ sry guys .. #2: I LOVE reading too . I can get hooked on to books .. like seriously . I can go out with my mum just to buy my dog's food while I bring the book with me to read -.- #3: This book talked about brain transplant and after telling that to a friend, NOW HE SAID I SHOULD READ BOOKS MORE ...

Umm .. That's right . I'm somewhat screwed . You saw those words . This morning . woke up with stretches and yawns . Followed by checking messages in the phone . It was nearly noon time (I woke up pretty late, yeah ...) and my dad started to nag at me . nag nag nag . All the stuff that I have yet to do, not yet done finished, he nag and nag and nag . zzz . second mother =x It was raining really heavily and even afternoon and evening still raining . but when I was on my way for cca @ 4pm, it didn't rain :D Then had cca . I calmed myself down already . if scold, well, take it as him giving advice to me . So.. well, when I stepped into the room, he sounded like he was in a normal mood . Then I put down my bag and saw eunice with the notebook ... looking at some photos . Then guof came and randomly asked me for bonding games ...... I had no idea what the heck was going on till I asked Michelle . Then she told me .. something dunno what Sec 1 camp thingy ... well, I saw 9 game...

He calmed me with songs Never did I get such a wonderful .. well, "present" I must say (: I've always thought that small acts were insignificant . not very important you know . You see, I've always felt left out in things . In groups of friends, when assigned tasks ... well, mostly friends . Or even like, probably if I'm not in school, three quarter of the class did not even know, well, at least Nicole Mok didn't . I know many didn't . I'm not trying to say that I wanna be "popular", whatsoever . NO , in fact, well, I don't know, but I feel that whenever I feel left out and life just goes on as per normal, I apply it to other things . well, for instance, someone in a team, cheerleading for instance . If someone's not there, how can the pyramid form? When something is left out, when one is affected, it affects the whole . Heard of that saying? Yeah . Well, to me, I grew up in a sense that .. well .. it doesn't affect the whole . Ju...

AHHHYOOOBI (: ALONE ): Woke up @ 10am+ today . Drank one cup of milk and left the house with my report book . Guess what? I forgot my school badge and ran back to the house to get it . And I wasn't planning to wake orlie up . but since I opened the door and kinda turned it "loudly" I guessed I woke her up .. OH, and another thing, when I got there, and I just put my school badge on (lazy to put my name tag), I realised that the security guard didn't even ask for my name tag/badge - so much for actually running back to the house to get my badges . Then I met Jelene on the way on bus 53 (: we talked and talked till we stopped at the opposite-school-bus-stop . and after we almost reach class .. Then we met amanda and her friends . Thankfully, she told us that the report books were to be given to her (monitress) 'cos Ms Tan not in . And so, we need not walk the extra steps to the classroom!! ((: And so everyone dumped the report books with ah ma xD LOL . Then went t...

Bored now .. when I said the first sentence that would be, I mean it, "Amabel told me to do this while she levels before she would mc with me" . Oh well .. yeahs . I'd already said that . So .. uh .. I hate NOTHING TO SAY!!!! T.T this is bad . anyone up for a call on the phone? No? T.T I'M SO BORED .............................. p.s. I just overheard one of the testimonies my dad was hearing from the computer ... by.. uh ... Chew Chor Meng .. yeah . Then I heard ".. u all know what PSLE means right? Please Stop Learning English .." LOLL!! best . CHECKMATE! drAmAQUEEN .

WORSE .. I just ate 6 lozenges today ~_~ I saw the packet they said only eat 1-2 lozenges as needed .. ohmy GOSH ?! And after that, I had tummyache -.- Orlie had tummyache too .. LOL . really coincidence!! Then she vomitted .. Then .. came my turn, I just had diarhhoea +_+ Mann ... this stinks (though I don't use that word often .. well... kinda getting used to it here) .. CHECKMATE! drAmAQUEEN .

SICK today )): Mann .. The weather's killing me .. I've been having the flu for SO LONG . It's only after medication, I'm relieved for a few weeks then it'll be back again -.- I didn't go to school today . My mum's gonna give the letter thingy . Sigh, I wonder what you guys did today ...... One thing for sure is; watch movie . Sure one . Confirm . garantee plus chop you guy watched a movie .. or a continuation . LOL . Anyways, I asked Andrea and she said so . I spent more than 2 hours finding and changing my blogskins & stuff & details and everything . Gosh . It's really a lot of things . So what I did was to find blogskin, add/change the info and stuff, copy and paste, save original in microsoft word, check if there's any corruption . The first one had one corruption - couldn't find the problem - and so I decided to find another blogskin . How's this one? not bad right? Sigh .. nowadays I find it so hard to find blogskins . Like no ...