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Red. Blue button. Yeah, pretty random. Don't know why, but I guess the way to distract myself from thinking of upsetting thoughts, I think of random things. yes, even as random as a red or blue button. most probably would just look around for objects or words. and I just saying it out in my mind. Somehow I'd always get goosebumps for saying something that random to myself. Weird, but it kinda works =x Haha.. well, I didn't know what to put as a heading. honestly :\ Hmm.. it's a pretty long day today.. but at least I started off the day right! I woke up on time and got to school on time :D And I even got a seat in the bus hehe. The day started off with 3 periods of A math. seems like a torture? about so. Rate of change is really... GAHH!! And I heard plane geometry's the hardest topic of the syllabus .. and we've yet to cover that!! =.= hmm.. but I guess for math and a math, it's just regular practicing.. I do hope it's the same for those two topics.. A...

And it shall start today . yupp. just started on my revision for prelim 1 that's gonna be like.. right after june hols ._. oh well. I guess it's actually good anyway. cos I think I'd forgotten some of physical geog after being submerged in human geog facts :s Oh well. I've been doing a lot of reading and taking down notes today. from my notes. haha well, draw mind maps, etc. well, okay, mindmap not yet. Hmm.. I still got monsoon forests to cover before I can draw the mindmap on Natural Vegetation. on ONE chapter. yes, one chapter, not topic. It's alright. I'm taking little steps at a time. starting with the freshest topics in my head right now (physical geog) :D So what did I cover today? Hmm.. Tropical rainforests, Temperate Coniferous forests and Mangrove forests. I'm really pretty motivated by chinese now. hehe. well, doing a paper in a quiet environment really helps and well, the previous paper (last week, chinese) that I did? yeah, I improved 13 marks...

Long. The past few days had been really long and dreary for me, but I'm glad it's pretty much over now :D It's quite personal, so I've decided not to type it here.. oh well. Let's just say that pride had been a serious issue for me. And well, the constant debate of fear and pride. Just wanna thank God that he'd provided me with great friends who'd lent me a listening ear and comforted me. It's tough, fighting this battle, and quite stubborn of me to use just my own efforts in doing so.. but at least now that my eyes are open, I begin to see that I should've relied on God and that I have friends around me, who care for me, and it's good to share with them about my problems once in awhile - and not bottle them inside of me. Well, aside from all that, sports day was one friday and LEE house won champion in cheering & secondary activities! :D We still lost to CHEW house though -.- They were the overall champion. But it's alright. At least I...

it was so .. embarrassing. accidentally dropped a lens during an experiment in the physics lab. paid $6 for it -.- Sigh. had my moments today. really embarrassing, awkward(many), etc. But I guess I wouldn't wanna talk about it. It's too.. well, you know, awkward. I was daydreaming most of the time today. I remembered early in the morning this thought crossed my mind: the greatest achievement when I leave my school, is that I've created precious and the most wonderful memories in my 16 years of my life. Well, apparently , I don't know where that thought came from ._. But I figured it was true and someday, maybe the end of this year, I just might come up with an elaboration on that :D I stayed back to do the chinese test paper. Totally lost focus when I came to do the second li jie wen da. No, it's wasn't the environment. It was noisy at all. It was so quiet I could hear my breathing. haha! jkjk.. It was just quiet. Thing is, I didn't understand much of the f...

Just like Iron metal. This morning I could barely get up because of my heavy head =.=" Really don't like falling sick because whenever I do, the word "weak" just constantly haunts me in my mind. And the only thing that I can do to make myself feel better is by studying -.- which, apparently, would make my headache far worse, but at least I feel.. mentally better, somewhat. I didn't do much today. spent most of my time sleeping like a pig.. And since I skipped my chinese test today, I gotta do it tomorrow.. I've got other stuff to settle as well, like the stopping of gz lessons which is adding on to my headache now since I'd probably have to talk to my mom and that receptionist about the whole new rules and regulations this new boss put up. argh. Oh well, get it done once and for all and my focus will be mainly on studying, syf and church stuff (song writing, etc). While i was mia in school today, I received news that my chinese teach change ): my new chi...

One step, Two step, Three ... Yesterday - if I remembered the day right - I was on my way home, walking the underpass of serangoon mrt from the blue to the green one.. Then I saw this little boy that jumped from a white tile to the another. and only the white ones. hehe, brings back a lot of memories! I used to do that too. hehe. just that it's not only white, but the brown tiles as well. It's either full white or full brown anyway. Well, I'd like to mention that because.. I think what gz tuan needs right now is progress. Yes, the big - no, HUGE - problem is that they talk. a lot. too much . Normally, I'd be quite okay with it, but you know, it's too much to the extent where they lack of discipline and that irritates me quite a bit.. When they talk, they don't listen to the important things to take note. So they end up playing the wrong thing and it affects people around her. They'd probably ask like, "oh, like that play one ah?" kind of thing .. B...

BACK. from ... um ... my table? okay, Im still at my table. haha! homework I guess. Just completed another compre. Have yet to complete ytd & today's compre's summary.. Shall do it tomorrow. Hmm.. I shall make this a short post. haha, nothing really much to say anyways. I've got a busy week ahead with guzheng and church stuff.. wednesday morning to 12noon (I hope).. as for the rest of the week: Thursday - 8.30am to 1pm gz prac AND 2pm to 6pm rehearsal for mini SYF concert. Friday - 8.30am to 12.30pm mini SYF concert AND 12.30pm to 3.30pm sec 1 orientation..(compulsory) Saturday - 8am to 9.30am english tuition in school AND 1pm to 5pm gz prac AND 5pm to 7pm YE AND 8pm to 10pm cell (maybe only) Sunday - morning or afternoon cell (still not sure of the timing) AND 4pm to 6pm church. Gotta finish all my homework and study for chinese test on monday. gah. no time no time..

ねむいねむいねむいねむいねむい ~-~ Woke up real early today - to me - at 7.10am. Real bad morning! I lost my comb, misplaced my rubberband, was almost late - but thank God I wasn't otherwise I'd accompany the other latecomers in standing up to play the gz. gosh. backache =.= I'd realise it's been really really tough being a zheng leader. and I'd probably lost my strength to give the motivational talk I've always been wanting to give to pull them in each time they try to stray away and talk about other stuff and get distracted and all. If it wasn't for Sianling who helped me today, I think I'd probably just cancel my gz lesson and say that I was sick when i actually was just so mentally drained that I just wanted to sleep. Thankfully, despite their short attention span and lack of discipline - somewhat - my zheng was never scolded during he zou :D However, that's probably because there are so many other major problems for lao shi to settle. And such little problems,...

おつかれ! Had a crazy morning of gz prac from 8.30am-1pm. it was madness .. we played the same song over and over and over and over. I thought I was gonna drop my head on my guzheng with my hands on the strings of it. and no, it didn't end at 1pm.. of course not! It ended at 1.40pm instead. remaining about 40 min for the other song, guang ling san. hehe during the first recording - which my lao shi realised later after the "second" recording of another section of the song that the first and second recording was recorded because he forgot to turn the switch on - he said, "guang ling SHan .." ahhahaha! they way he said it was like.. =x eunice and I couldn't help but did the silent giggle. hehehe :D The practice was good because it wasn't only fun but strict as well. Very disciplined, rather. I'd realised how disciplined my group became as well! They began to react quickly when I wanted their attention. so that's a good point there :D Another good poin...

.. とおもいます。 Have been quite pumped up about studying lately. I think it gave me a headache after the continuous hours of studying =.= So I've decided to give myself a break and not do anything today but relax and read my book. Glad to say I'm done with my a math paper and chemistry ws as holiday homework. Now left with English, Chinese and Geography. Sigh. Am still thinking about whether or not to go for the BBQ this wednesday. Though I have a 50% part of me wanting to and not wanting to go. Besides, it'd my only free day in the week! ): Plus, I gotta prepare that TEN scripts for as chinese homework, not to mention two zuo yes. gah don't like chinese D; Oh well. I told Rach I wouldn't be going already. I guess I really need all the rest I can get. Hmm.. anyways .. Today was quite productive for me, I spent most of my time doing hol hw/listening in class, taking down notes, etc. hehe I think I'm too glued to a math alr. I'm thinking of logarithms now. siao. ...

A math drill that's right. added up to 5hrs+ of a math. consisting of a math holiday hw and merely two questions from my a math textbook (differentiation). Today's pretty much slack. again. physics lesson was really relaxing as our teach (replacing mr pang temporary since he's doing his ippt.. hehe) teaches and give lame jokes as we learn and laugh along. hehe he's pretty cute as a teach too. hehe (: Hmm .. next up was PE. 2.4km. oh gosh =.= my pe shirt gave me a scratching frenzy! I looked like some .. i dunno crazy person scratching herself while running =.=" hah! i pictured a chicken in my head .... Anyways, next up was english and math. Must thank God once again for giving me the confidence to speak up, loud and clear (: although I wouldn't I say I wasn't scared cos I was shaking =.= literally. inside-out! they probably couldn't really see because I was standing behind the table and well, I was moving about in that spot anyway. haha however u visua...

A-CA-DE-MICS! hehe today's pretty slack so I got to read 'vanished' most of the time during today's lessons :D English lesson was most entertaining, apparently. haha! We were practicing our oral (reading). And learnt to identify words that, when you say it out, somewhat joins together. like 'catch up' or 'save up'. You don't say them separately, in a way, for e.g. catCH uP. it's more of the flowy fluent kind. 'catchup'. Hmm.. my group's presentation is shifted to tomorrow cos one of my dear group members was sick and went home after. Hope she gets well soon .. like, tomorrow .. Tomorrow's the last day of presentation. Don't know what'll happen if we don't get to present. And if I'm not wrong.. we've only got one period tomorrow! ): Anyways, had cca later. Well, recording. Guof, lydia and I had to play some parts of chun jie for my lao shi to record them down. Once it was done, I stayed back for awhile more - ti...

God is gracious! (: He had yet again, proved me wrong of my instincts of failing geography (and physics). hehe. I'm really glad that He has shown me this point that I remembered .. somewhere.. : Studies doesn't exactly matter. Well, that'd be true. To be living in this hectic world - in SINGAPORE -.- - The competition is tough and education is crucial. However, I'm glad God does not judge us by how long, how short, whether or not it includes a lot of bombarstic vocabulary, God looks at the heart. And that's really just good enough (: And I'm on my way to completing my second song! yay yay yay! :DD I'm still considering whether or not I should add the bridge in because.. well, honestly, I'm still not sure how to add the tune to it, and there's the flow, etcetc. Besides, it's not up to me to decide. I still gotta pray about it right? :D Because this song is not mine, but God's. And it's not for me, but God. Hmmm.. came back from school abou...

The Horrendous results. I don't think I'll be getting any Bs. except science. I think. physics probably pulled it down and I know that I've got some careless mistakes that I made in my chem paper.. But I must say, I'm surprised I passed physics because right after the paper, I felt like I'd already lost majority of the marks. Thank God I passed anyways :D So.. nope, it doesn't mean the rest are As. as you can see, the title of this post is "the horrendous results". I think I've got a lot of Cs this term. hopefully. YES. scarily , hopefully. Because the weirdest thing is that when I'd no confidence in e math, I scored in it. it's my only A ..? & when I had confidence in getting at least a B4 for a math, I failed with a D7. ugh. stupid ct paper! GAHHHH!!!!! I had to vent my frustration and anger somewhere right. And so I did a math questions today, on - though it's not trigo, but - differentiation. Have no problems with chain rule. G...