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there's nothing better than the dance of hip-hop! true or false? HAH. Anyways, yepp, learnt some hip-hop moves which, apparently, in my case, doesn't fit PLUS I'm not that good either. haha! but at least had a lot of fun doing it though xD The instructors were super cool. The Andy guy and the girl (at my side of the hall) > assistant.. dance was super cool. The girl looked very much like a korean girl. LOL. and her baggy jeans and all that. she's super awesome!! xD And so, our side were so inspired and awed and we danced! (: If I'm not wrong, I think our side was the MOST ENTHU KAY!!! (: Oh well, though we didn't dance that nice, at least we supported our instructors, right? =x GAHHAHA!! gosh!! their movements were so vigorous and awesomely COOOOOL!!! hahahha. though simple. hmmmmm ... Had quite a "day" in school today. But er.. well, yeah, back home now. probably gonna start studying soon. soon. after my lunch. and ew, orlie's drooling on me -....

Voice In the cold mist of this dark alley Lies the deadliest sounds of fading cries Hearts of many worn-out and weary Town full of sorrows and many sighs Reaching out for the least bit of hope Grabbing every string, holding on tight This thin, but strong rope Clinging on to it all night Words of weariness, helplessness, Running through their dry lips The last words they say before succumbing to their fate in silence.

*News!* I've just updated my mixpod and woots! new songs, yeh? Hmm.. the new and probably foreign album is "Ordinary Man ... Extraodinary God", basically about the life of David (: [those songs are tracks 1,2 and 7] The songs are really nice but unfortunately, there're only limited tracks - that I find nice - but some unable to be found in mixpod ): But no worries! There's youtube! :D Okay, eh-hem. news over. One word to describe my day .. "sick." again.

So far so great! :D Have received great news from Ms Wong though it contradicts with what Mr Lim said .... Don't know about anyone, but I feel that it's .. 1) it's just Mr Lim having high standards on us or 2) Ms Wong is trying to hide something from us. But either way, I'd rather look on the bright side and probably, for now, choose to believe what Ms Wong says :D This morning was really warm. I was beginning to doubt the Weatherman cos he said it'd be showers with thunder today. And well, just in the morning was really warm and stuff. But after PE, the weather became cool and it started to drizzle .. and eventually, rain (: & it's still raining now!! It's such a great weather to take an afternoon nap! =x sorry, deprived of sleep yesterday night ._. Sighs. I had a nap just now after much slacking and reading my book, but ... I just remembered I had to "do a script" for myself to present chinese project tml during chinese lesson. Then when I op...

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Let it go by Corrinne May I think we've been here before I recognize this place I've seen the marks of confusion wipe out a single sign of grace And I don't want to play anymore Not when the stakes are so high So before we circle round once more I'm gonna lay down, Lay down my pride Let it go, let it be Don't waste all your emotion on this tit-for-tat machine Let it go, let it be Let it go I turn on the TV and it screams out at me Nothing seems to have changed since the start of Adam and Eve So we're waiting for the sky to fall and we're buying brand new toys But before we circle round once more Can we lay down Just lay down this pride Let it go, let it be Don't waste all your emotion on this tit-for-tat machine Let it go, let it be Let it go Don't go wasting your emotions No one wins if we keep score Let it go, let it be Let it go Green-Eyed Monster by Corrinne May So you say life is unfair She's got everything you wanted And you're not even...

YAY! YAY! CELL GROUP TIME! :D haha! don't know why, but I just LOVE cell. Even though I find it a little bit weird to be praying in groups - up til now. HAHA. Well, I guess a time I'm just deprived of fellowship with YE peeps! ;D Anyways .. I must owe my thanks to regina for opening me up, yeah! Otherwise I'd probably still be the wallpaper in church :s But I guess, taking a step forward like this wasn't and isn't so bad after all? Haha, a time of fun and bonding still cheers me up the most - even when I'm really depressed and demoralised (: Wrote a poem about our cell! haha, and I have not included about the remark Steph made about our cell yet .. Hmm ... haha! Shall do more drafts and finish it up and post it here again! (: Hmm.. Before cell, had guzheng recording again ): But the recording was okay ba.. At least he didn't criticize it much. I guess it's cos I was all too serious about it .. And well, he had to entertain a guest .. okay, not exactly a ...

And another day is gone. Have been addicted to this game called "fishies", one of the iphone/ipod apps. xD gee, it's pretty fun now, but I guess pretty much I'd get sick of it quite soon after some time ..... haha Had a supersuper long day and well, pretty much tiring + demoralising + moody I guess. Tiring is cos.. well .. it's usual. Demoralising? Teachers won't even give us a break from the tension and stress. Yeah, you pretty much get it. Moody? The weather. The whole day .. raining .. such a GREAT DAY TO SLEEP !! & guess what? there's a last minute notice to me that I've got recording tomorrow! MORNING . Hope I won't be late for cell. Sighs. sickening hectic life. Such a sickening secondary school life now. humph. I don't wanna grow up. I wanna be stuck here in this time dimension. [hah! later got deja vu or repeat of the same day over and over again, I die..] Seriously, seeing myself so busy now, I'd definitely be busier in future ...

Daddy's girl Looking at the past I remembered how you smiled at me Every little step I took An encouragement from you, Clapping your hands, All the kiddy talk Help me through. Then you'd buy me A lollipop You'd clap your hands again Seeing how much pain I've been going through Every bit of it, I thought, was worth it. Every night you'd tuck me in bed & kiss me on my forehead "Goodnight, dear," was what you always said. It's so quick All like a shooting star I thought I'd freak out But I never expected it to turn out this way. Dear Daddy, where are you? I've been searching but can't find Through this crowd Blinded by everyone You're nowhere to be seen Dear Daddy, Are you alright? Are you in trouble? Did you get into a fight? I worry for you But you don't see it Dear Daddy, I want you to see I want you to feel That I'm there. What happened to the big & round, multi-coloured lollipops you used to buy for me? Where's the...

I HAD A GREAT DAY. See the little living creatures Crawling on the ground With tiny little features Amazed of how they are? See the clouds holding hands Merging together as one Down with the rain plays the band & after that, out comes the sun See the trees and their branches Intertwined, hand in hand Twirling more and more as it ages Can you see it? Can you apprehend? See the people all around you See what they did or did not do See how much you've grown so far Can you no longer call yourself a fool? Great day! (:

Common tests are over, exams are getting nearer :\ Well, the thought of it creeps me out. But well, I've got a week to enjoy before I started mugging again! :D Sheesh.. It's good AND bad though. These few days have not been using the computer, not even on for 4 days I guess. And I'm not quite sure when the last time was when I switched on my computer .. & that I realise i have to otherwise my lappy's gonna crash T-T all thanks to msn! I think it's the anonymous people I added - not knowing they were .. viruses (most probably the cause that whenever I log on to msn, my lappy blue screens me.) .. Oh wells.. Oh yeah, hmm .. have been having late night "naps" - cos I wake up early in the morning too. Well, at least mine wasn't as bad as some of my classmates :\ Thank God I prayed for everyone including Cara, or rather, esp for her 'cos she was DYING to pass math. And I prayed with all my heart . And well, whaddya know? She passed e math common test...

Yes it is. (: Near the impending harsh reality The darkness of the soft light feeling I really wonder when it will finally be This thick fog surrounding Devouring me slowly bit by bit, part by part Leaving nothing left of me But an old grey heart What lies ahead of me I do not presume it to be White, pure and smooth virgin snow But all of it as a plain act or show. Normally I'd type down the interesting stuff and followed by other events. But I had decided to type all the events. chronologically. no idea why ._. My mom and I had decided to leave the house at 11.30am. Apparently, delayed and left the house at 12.10pm instead. So we cancelled the trip to IKEA and headed straight for church. But first, lunch at the usual coffeeshop area ^o^ Cancelling the trip to IKEA was good 'cos we - well, actually .. I. My mom had to wait for me 'cos my food came much much later (western! (: ) - had more time to eat :D Headed down to church afterwards and was really early. Met regina and s...

HAHAHHAHA!!! (: Life has been great for me ever since tests started. I think this is the very first common test that I'm taking and I'm not feeling .. well, regretful in a way after doing the paper. Hmmm .. God has really shown me that through believing and seeing to believe it will happen and praying, trusting in Him, will our wishes be "granted" and so on .. It's like the other day Rachel told us about Isaac telling his catholic friend that Jesus died for ALL our sins; past, present AND future - somewhat I heard it's a belief this "future" part doesn't really exist in the catholics book.. And well, his friend just couldn't believe how it was so easy. And here I am, asking myself the same question. How is it so easy that all this while, all my almost 15 years of living, and I've not known it was this easy?? All my troubles come and go like a swift breeze. One moment I was worrying for not able to remember, then I remembered because I pra...

Nothing much(: Just here to say thanks to God for whatever He has done for me. Well, just another thing, a little surprised when Pastor Joseph talked about John 3:16 because just yesterday night I was talking to God about it. And well, amazingly, about the same meaning as well. I mean, it's always the same process. People lock their eyes on something that amaze them and they become so enamoured to it. Then slowly as they constantly receive "it" they take advantage of "it" and they forget the importance of "it". But later, people realise that what they did was wrong, then they repent and ask for forgiveness. Then the whole cycle repeats. Sighs. such human mistakes, are not really avoidable, but I really do hope that with God helping me and that because He is for me, He will help me pull through such battles on Earth. Anyways, while I was listening to Pastor Joseph - for the first time, not falling asleep - I was pretty amazed by many things that he'...

On that day when we first met did you remember what you did for me? That very day when we were both wet Because I first was then you gave me your umbrella, but I refused? On that day when we first spoke to each other did you remember what you first said? That very day when we had a cup of coffee together & insisted very much that you paid? On that day when you first helped me did you remember what you did for me? That very day when I fell to the floor in misery You pulled me back up to my feet and tell me how much I was worth? On that day when you first called me did you remember what you first said? That very day when we talked for hours When I was in need of you, when I was afraid? On that day when we became one did you remember how strong we were together? That very day when you stretched out your hand Then called me your friend? Did you ever? Remember .. When we first held our hands In agreement to be friends? Remember .. When we hugged, with this A seal of our promise as frien...

It's probably one of the most memoriable day. EVER. Alright. Before I go on, I would like to say some stuff about the new mixpod :D Okay, I think some of you might think it's a bit .. "disturbing" to see the first song, played.. and that "disturbing" scenes come out and ruin your day ... well, thing is. that's your problem. LOL. sorry. I just couldn't find a decent one! And yes, I gotta choose that because the sound level is roughly the same as the rest [except the last song - URGHH!! this is the part I dislike about mixpod -.-] Second thing, I wanted to give reasons for putting "When I survey the wondrous cross" first and "Jesus take the wheel" last. For the first one, well, it's that I feel great singing it. It brings back a lot of memories of what I've learnt during sunday school and stuff like that. I was thinking about God's love for me and what sins I've committed that He had already purified. Singing this so...

But should I ..? I would pick a hat from a nearby store Then put it on and say that it's nice But what if one day it tore, Should I buy it? Think twice . I would pick a cat from the street Feed it, take care of it, shower it with love But what if it leaves and the next day, again I find it dead on the street? Should I pick it up or just walk off? I would not do my homework Just probably because I'm too busy But what if I get scolded the next day Should I do it or let it be? I would make a decision of my own when I say that I'm ready But what if some day my cover gets blown With no shield left, should I have the right say I'm truly ready? I would say I'm really happy Jumping around, hyped up everyday But what if one day you see me crying in the midday? Should I even pretend I'm fine, I'm okay? I would say I can do this on my own Seeing me managing these things really well But what if one day you realised, my pride, away, I've thrown Should I just keep qu...

Balloons Holds the every air of hope.

Yet another miracle! God has done so many things in my life I can never fully repay for. Today, again he has shown me yet another miracle! I was super scared for lit (today's common test paper) because I'd nearly forgotten a lot of incidents in the beginning chapters and still unsure of a few chapters. I couldn't get to finish my revision because I was way too tired. I couldn't stand the stress and the late-night sleeping with my synus infection still not cured. And I can tell you, yesterday was HORRIBLE HORRIBLE HORRIBLE about the whole nausea and persistent headache and all that. Still, God blessed me yesterday night AND today - that I found out after sleeping for 2 hours just now and laid in my bed for another half an hour reciting the ss stuff I remembered last week and this monday. Thing is, yesterday night, as I've typed here, I was super stress. really really stressed. I was so pressurized because for last term's overall result I've improved by about ...

UUU-WUAEHH !! vomit. gross. Have been really tired since this morning . Felt nausea ever since this morning. goodness gracious. headache too. But I'm guessing the headache was just caused by my hairband. Cos I never really expected it to be so tight ._. In case you might be wondering if I really did vomit. no i didnt. But I really felt like ..? ._." GAHH!! Lit is killing me!! Ever since I read other books and Ms Loh left and Ms Ho came, my interest for CCM disappeared into thin air!! Like .. not dramatic anymore, never really liked from chapter 8-9, then 16 onwards was HEADACHE. why? Ms Ho just REFUSES to LISTEN to us and teach us by READING the passage aloud to all of us like little kids and be dramatic and for goodness sake - no, for our LEARNING sake - say the "The Bitch" word. It's not like she really meant it. I'm just saying, with her a bit more like Ms Loh would be preferably for our learning - that's all. But all that I'm spilling here, even t...

Really gotta keep rushing rushing rushing!! Common tests start tomorrow. This week: - English .. no comment. - Literature > slight killer. remembering the quotes are just.. UGHHH!! - Social Studies > KILLER. (aka, my wrists and fingers are gonna go spasm aog -.- fyi, aog = all over again) FRIDAY FREE :O for the week -.- = to just more time to study geography, chinese & physics.. Next week (wednesday onwards): - Geography > KILLER aleeeert!! [hard to memorise ._.] - Chinese > already stabbed and prepared in a coffin, waiting for my cremation. - Physics > JIAYOUJIAYOU!! LAST WEEK!! aka following week (starts on monday): - A or E math > YAHOO!!!!!!! .com. LOL. - Chemistry > uhmuhmuhm :\ not too sure. - E or A math > YIPEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!! :DD Love it when they end it off with math (: that is, provided I know how to do 85% of the paper ._. otherwise .. dotdotdot. Anyways, gotta wake up at 5am+ to study later before rushing to school and take the 10-minute class...

Fuzzy. Don't know. But I kinda think it's the right word to describe today. It's pretty messed up and stuff. One: woke up, messed up hair. Two: rushed out of the house after realising that roo wanted to meet up for lunch with her. Three: plan failed 'cos I was late and when I called her, she said she was still at home. cancelled. Four: realised I have to eat lunch alone today. Five: tried calling eunice if she was available. But she didn't answer. Six: tired calling rachel. same thing. no answer. Seven: walking to church after getting out of the MRT, hair flew everywhere. messed up. Eight: found out Eunice wasn't coming. Nine: two brownies wasted. [but I got to pass two to rach.] Ten: the only one from tigris that came to help out (ushering). Eleven: Darren came to help a little. But before that, I was arranging it all on my own. Twelve: sat alone. At least mentally, I felt so. Esther & friend sat beside me. Pretty much ignored my existence. The only few wor...