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Anti-social. Battle with my own conscience. Again, I feel that way. Sometimes all it takes is a talk To make it motivating A little encouragement To make things going I really really want to "blend-in" with them, but I don't seem to fit in anywhere. Ottekay? Ottekay?! I tried my best. I really did! Or did I? All I did was write a song. right. a song. What can that do? Bring fame to myself? WHO CARES? I just wanna talk to them. What's so difficult?? Right, missing the point here : I CAN'T EVEN OPEN A TOPIC BOTH THAT BOTH THEY AND I KNOW!!! I tried to look on the bright side. At least I still have Deborah right? Sigh. WRONG . I must've been neglecting her trying my best to make friends with the others. I feel so terrible avoiding her like this. SHE'S MY FRIEND! And yet, I don't even talk to her already. the most is that I see her during YE, talk awhile. When that's it. And she's gone. Dunno go where. She's probably with Crystal and Hannah by...

Bad day . It seems I've failed To put on a smile today The consequences I face The price I've got to pay Bad day. really bad bad bad day. How many times but I type this out to put across the meaning of it? gawsh . I'm so darn freakin' pissed. Sometimes I feel blessed to have this sister. But sometimes I really feel like God is putting me to suffering. It also seems like everything goes wrong when I deliberately skip a day of QT. ARE U SERIOUS?? Sigh. oh my goodness . I really don't know anymore. I look at my water bottle, my green water bottle. I though of green things. Green fields and green fantasies. Sigh. I don't know. That was just random, btw. I don't want to face reality, but guess what? It's before me now. And I have a sister to stress me on it, pulling me back to reality after I've attempted to run away from it. A runaway plan for the escape of reality scheme. Didn't work out for me. CHECKMATE! drAmAQUEEN .

Smiles all the way ((: Regardless of what happen today I must maintain my smile all the way Only then will I overcome my past And fully forgetting it all at last Let's talk about positive things today: + Teacher's president's award [ thought this was "fun" in a way, but I didn't bother doing it.. ] + I got my sleep during chinese lesson [ about 20mins as round-up? or down? zzz.. felt like 6 hours of nice sleep ] + Was glad as God gave us mercy on not handing in homework today ((: [ Even the ones I already did, like chinese gong han. Physics I didn't do. Math didn't even like.. how to say, got do, I really did. But all my answers are WAYYYYY different from the textbook. guess which math did I do? -.- ] + Math lesson was super funny. BOB! YOU THEN SARCASTIC LAH! [ Even though the conversation was so STUPID, EVERYONE STILL LAUGHED BECAUSE IT WAS STUPID! YEAAAA~~ ] + Math remedial let me learn how to do two new questions. Rest was a piece of cake!! :DD [ ...

Words. Screwed. Tired/Stress-relief. Stress. Angry. Upset. Confused. Mixed feelings. I'm screwed. // I screwed A math test today, along with chinese and ss for the whole common test, all, with ONE SCREWDRIVER. I'm tired&stress-relieved. // Common tests are finally over, I need a break . Stress. // Friendship problems. Angry. // Friendship problems. Upset. // Friendship problems. Mixed feelings. // Friendship problems. Look what made my day! CHECKMATE! drAmAQUEEN .

Its tough. Life's rough. Life's tough. Life's great. Life's the bait. I can't think of a math now. oh my goodness. and A math test is tomorrow. GAWD! OH MY GOODNESS. SERIOUSLY, I REALLY WANNA FAINT OKAY. THE END. CHECKMATE! drAmAQUEEN .

The Beginning As I entered into the dark forest, the rays of the sun squeezed through the thick vegetation. My skin prickled. The sunlight seemed to be able to reach me through the canopy. Along with the cool weather, it freshened up the grass, bringing life to animals living in trees and on ground, I took a deep breath. The smell of the grass travelled to my nose lazily, making it twitch a little. The birds chirped and the humming birds hummed, both sounded as if it was a failed attempt to form a harmonous tune. Step by step my feet lifted and touched the ground, trying not to draw any attention to myself. Upon hearing a soft growl, I was alarmed. It sounded somewhat harmless, but it alerted me not to let my guard down. It sounded like a cub of a tiger or a bear or a lion - wait, lions don't growl like that, they don't growl when they hunt on their prey! My thoughts silenced when I finally felt my tummy churning, realising who was to blame for it. That's right, I have not...

TESTS = STRESS NOT? I totally screwed chinese today. I really mean it. Sure fail. Probably a grade of E8 at most . Somehow, after the chinese test today, I was trying to calm myself down - and also managed to become the cheerful me again. Today's chapel was quite "beautiful" in a way. Well... I guess it was of some significance that kept me awake. 'Cos for the past I think about 1 month of chapel's sermons, I've been falling asleep in the comfortable chair in the auditorium hall while today's sermon, well, it really reached out to me and I stayed awake - even though I slept i the first few minutes after worship [I WAS TIRED KAY! I SLEPT AT 2AM TODAY!! THIS MORNING !!! STUDYING CHINESE, ONLY TO REALISE EFFORTS WASTED, I'M DAMN XIN TONG!!! ))):] .. Today's sermon was about like, something made you like um.. really "BOOMZZZ" but it was so ordinary, it was TOO ordinary till I was really touched and many thoughts crossed my mind; What if I wa...

Another boring day passes.. I could say I hated this day.. or I could say I definitely like this day - the least! I'm starting to hate Fridays. Either that, or I'm just suffering from severe PMS . If that's the case, then should one not be angry and pissed when everything that was planned to go well .. in fact, was RUINED? Last friday, for peeps who keep up with my blog posts, would've known what a terrible day I had. Not only me , but in fact, in one of the most irritating thing that happened [A math incident - btw, NOTHING was done about it after this week just blew pass me. Those two teachers were given AMPLE time to discuss about this. And yet? No answer. crap- ness please.] my classmates were affected too. It was then that my classmates saw the scary part of me. Well, when I look back now, I do kinda think that I was quite harsh. Well, what's over is over, I can't do anything about it. Today, I planned for these things to go well; + For once: - Class outi...

Upset. I know I know. To some of you, all that I post/most of the posts that I write are emo.. But I think I really can't help it. Problem #1: I can't let go of my past. Though it's not, in a sense, shameful and all that, but it was so bad to the extent that I can't bring myself to fully forgive the person who was involved. No matter how hard I tried, no matter how much I yearned to gain a new perspective of her, I just can't seem to. I'm on the brink of breaking down soon. Though it's just one year in my head, it feels like 10 years and I'm afraid of letting it stay in my head for too long till I go totally insane! Problem #2: Aside from the first problem, I can't stand it nowadays when I watch drama series/shows and show injustice and stubborn people. Mostly stubborn. As they all said it, the first point is always important, as to impressions. My past is a burden. It is dragging me down, haunting me of the outcomes when I talk to her or when I ask ...

A lesson to be learnt .. Oh yeah. about today's BIG HEADLINE NEWS .. Sigh. the media is just TOO MUCH . Though I may not have read the article yet, or ever =x Still, it's not right to bring shame to him and his family!! (That pastor who discriminated other religions or something like that) #1 Yeah, so he sinned. He did wrong. People say he must be punished, but must they really do this to him? The media really is black-hearted. No offence, but I really wish one of them would appear on newspaper one day just because whosoever lied to someone and just did a small mistake. #2 SMALL CRIME DOESN'T MEAN NO CRIME This is of something I must really stress on .. for now. The Pastor sinned, was punished and was brought shame to him and his family. We sinned, we were punished, though not as harsh and was not brought shame to ourselves and our family (depending on situation, mostly not). Now the only difference we see here is due to our rank. Solution: In God's eyes, we are His ...

NUHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Stupid man. I screwed compre test AND chemistry class test. Looks like I gotta work super hard for my summary and chemistry common test. Regarding A math class test, still no news about that . Sigh, still, even though I've finally cooled off after my scary "act"(except that it really happened) last friday that I scared some people that some people scared to talk to me today. Or rather, some just gave me scary glares ._. Man.. I'm really not that scary!!! I really aren't!!! It's just that I was having a really bad day and this made me more pissed and my blood was really boiling .... SORRY PEEPS IF I SCARED YAH ... Today went to study at macs with amabel and... yeah. that's it. MUAHAHHAHA!!! Just to clarify something: ENGLISH -COMPO done, COMPRE done, SUMMARY not done. MATH -CLASS TEST done, COMMON TEST not yet A MATH -CLASS TEST done(though matter is UNSOLVED), COMMON TEST not yet CHINESE -ZUO WENs done, LIAN BIs done, COM...

God, Jesus, Our Father (continuation) . While I was brought around this greenfield He turned to me and smiled My hands he touched and held He asked, "What do you see, my child?" I did not know what to reply I guess I was still traumatised of the quick-changing sceneries and atmosphere But now, a steady, sweet scent I smell and a sweet sound I hear A second look the man gave me This time, more concerningly "Are you all right?" He said Suddenly breathless, I needed some sort of aid Was this a dream? Am I dead? Of some sort it would seem that I'd wake up, shocked, in my bed A gentle laugh broke the tense atmosphere Before I knew it, I'd already let out a tear That voice that sounded so tender I'd just found out it's God, Our Father! The one who appeared before me The one who can help me The one who can find the cure To heal my wounds, just like before So many things he did for me I could no longer hold it in I hugged him tightly as if he was my only ki...

RECOVERING ((: AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMABEL!! ((: Wanna thank all your prayers, I'm recovering!!!! :DD Just that my voice still hasn't really changed :\ Oh well. Today after school, after lunch with amabel and anna, went back up to class while both of them went for cca (npcc). Then I went high with the class microphone {{: RANDOM LAH . I know, got classmates laugh at me u knoww!! that was how high I was -_-" MANN!! I just found out tomorrow is literature class test. AND I JUST. FOUND. OUT. And so, I read through crick crack monkey. And know what? I guess I've been too indulged with clay marble and all that, to the extend that whenever I mention the book of literature (book that we're using for literature), instead of saying crick crack monkey, I say, "CLAY MARBLE." And Amabel will always go, "HUH??! WHAT CLAY MARBLE??" And a typical answer from me, "...Oh." And apparently I've been too busy either doing homework, studying, having cca,...