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Post for today Today? I'll tell you the post for today. love . &. hatred . Towards the world . The End.

More thoughts I just thought of sharing something, and so I shall. Honestly, I'm not always close to God - not that God has pushed me away from Him, rather, I'm the one wandering elsewhere. Living the life of a hypocrite meant looking forward to what I ought to do, yet taking a step backward, away from who I am .. well, created to be, away from God . How on earth did I come to that conclusion? I'll tell you what happened today. Waking up pretty early in the morning - early to me - My friends who stayed over at my place decided to have lunch, so we went downstairs, bought some lunch, headed home to eat and watch a movie, started baking as planned. Well.. Things weren't going so well after that. The first batch was pretty much a failure, although it did help us to take note of certain mistakes to not make in the second batch of cheesecakes were making. I wasn't really upset about that, but I guess everything's pretty much accumulative, no matter how minor ...

Back to Work! Have been resting and recovering from the recent cold and I'm glad to say I'm feeling wayyy better now! :) Today wasn't as busy as I thought, so I'm pretty glad I didn't have to tire myself out "early in the morning" . Well, technically, during the hols, 12nn is like, 9am in the morning. oh boy. Yep, now you know my usual hols sleep cycle! haha! Well, I think my pay's coming in soon, so I gotta go check! I'm so excited cos I really can't wait to go get those pair of headphones I'm dying to search for and get my hands on (btw, I haven't even thought of what I'd want to get, but I'll be testing out some pair of headphones after doing some research and writing down some models on a piece of paper before I go hunt for that pair of headphones!) Today I woke up feeling really refreshed and rejuvenated! Was pretty on for work and all. ;D Now it's time to do more work! I mean, homework. Gotta work on that song....

Please. I'm not even asking you to climb 12 floors up and down, but please, please respect my decision of working at an FnB outlet. So many people are telling me it's not worth it, fnb make me do this, do that, my hands get dirty, I learn to do more things but my pay the same, and it's not high either. Hey, did you not think that I would've already considered these things before taking on the job? I love it. okay? I LOVE THE JOB. I love the aunties working there, they brighten up my day with their cheerful laughter and kind-heartedness. I love the managers there, I don't even care if I'm underpaid, these people are nice - true or not - they are nice, down-to-earth, give me free meals, .. they are just so.. like friends. I don't even see them as someone I have to be formal with at all. I can be myself. And I love that. I love the fact that the chefs there are filled with a different races, especially the ones from china, whatever they talk, I don...

Warning: emo I've always had this self-consciousness built in me from the day I was born. I don't know why. I never liked how I am, ever since I was young, or maybe when I was around the age of K1 or so. And that self-consciousness certainly exploded from the time my two front teeth dropped and out grew the adult/molar teeth. My life was never the same. This seems so much like an essay, but really, I mean every single word here. I have a confession to make, I never liked brushing my teeth when I was young. It was so bad until my two front teeth started decaying. My mom kept reminding me to brush otherwise my teeth condition would worsen when I grew older and I'd look like my dad. Um. Well, it wasn't enough to scare me to get into this habit of brushing my teeth. And so, I'm suffering the consequences of my stupid, foolish & stubborn decisions I made when I was younger, now. Along the way, as my teeth's enamel began to start decaying, being weak, I h...

Warning: rage I'm trying to hold it in. I really am. You have no idea what wonderful and colorful words are running through my mind right now. I can totally list them all out here but I shan't, because I know this is a pretty influential platform. Living in a civilized world, I'll do my best to be civilized in this post. Yeah, um. SO, I just got back my results for a module. There were two assignments for that module. Assignment 1 is individual work whereas Assignment 2 is group work. For assignment 1, it's composing your very own song, record and mix it. I got a C+ for that. Not enough. For assignment 2, it's just recording different instruments with different kinds of miking techniques. I got a B for that. And what did I get the previous year for this module? A. Now, I know that my headphones was a big factor that caused my grade - needed a good pair, but I bought one that had a boost in mids and bass, hence, it affected my mix pretty bad - but...

God's Grace Recently, I've not been feeling well.. Again . I am thankful, though. Very thankful for the fact that God knows my condition and the exact state that I'm in, and though I went for work yesterday and today despite not feeling well, I didn't have to carry heavy plates, I didn't have to serve much cos I was taught how to use the cashier! And today I was taught some POA stuff... and admin stuff.... Totally, like, preparing myself for the upcoming semester... I heard for my "business in music studies" module, I'll be learning POA.. So.. meh. But this made me see how good God is! Despite me feeling in a not-so-good state, I could still work, in other areas that is less tiring and He even used it for the benefit of my near future (I'm sorry if there're grammar, vocabulary, conjunctions or prepositions errors and stuff.. I'm getting rusty with english) .. Right now I'm enjoying myself with some caramel black tea with a lil bit...

Thoughts. I realised I've been too easy-going. No, wait, I'll rephrase that, too easily-influenced.. I think that I'm so easily-influenced to the point that I don't even realise it. I didn't think that not being judgmental would result in me drifting away from God. Why? Because I fall to the other side of the spectrum! To the point where I'm so ok-this, ok-that, and I forget what I learnt that is right/wrong. I'm getting confused. #confusedteen I think it started when I entered poly. My rigid thinking was melted and turned into molten state, and eventually, liquid, I just flowed and filled up the shape of the container. Wherever do I belong? Whom do I belong to, but God? When I said so, then why am I acting like this? I can come up with these questions and have no answer to them because really, all that's ahead of those questions are blanks. white. blanks. Probably my thoughts are running too fast I can't seem to process it fully or that I ...