False Testimony
"False Testimony.."
it echoes through my head.
Sigh. Why was I even bothered by it? It feels like I'm walking in a desert, tired, hungry, thirsty and my heart's filled with an impossible hope.
I feel like I'm in a battle, fighting against my opponent - the devil - but it's attacking me in areas where I can't retaliate, or even block. And it's even cut me deep. But you would say..
Those who know Him would say..
"Where's God?"
I'm not saying He's not here, but rather, I am - in a way - ignoring Him, not wanting God's help. Well, that's what people would think from the outside. It's not that I deliberately do so, but more so that I don't know how to let God deal with my daily battles in life.
Remembering that Jesus died on the cross for ALL our sins wasn't enough. I needed to let go. Letting go is something I find so hard to do. Letting go of people you love, people you hate, your past, present, future, even letting go of possessions. I keep thinking, how do people just let go of everything they hold so close to their hearts, to God? I'm not saying I don't trust Him, but I just don't. know. how.
It's funny that people just give me the look when I tell them I learn a lot from watching anime..
Maybe after reading this, you might just change your mind and to those who love watching anime, appreciate it even more. Luffy. I've been spamming this anime (One Piece) ever since last week after a long break.. He doesn't seem to care very much about anything except food and becoming a Pirate King. Even when he's in danger, he eventually wins with his strong will. He can be stubborn and playful at times, but when it comes to battling, in a way, testing him, he becomes serious. Now why am I telling you all this?
I just had the thought of becoming just like Luffy. Fun & playful, just like a little kid. Innocent. I remember the Bible mentioning about being like a child. I think about the times when I hoped I knew less of the knowledge of the world and just be confined to the thought of fun & love, and all the positive things. Innocence. The part where he doesn't care? I really wish I can be like him.. who wouldn't even care less about negative thoughts or the bad side of things even in the toughest situations.. After all, he had a goal, and that is to become Pirate King. What is our goal? Well, mine is to be the serve the Lord wholeheartedly, being a good and faithful servant. Luffy, of course, would need nakama specialised in different things like medical, food, etc.. to reach his goal eventually. Just like how I need the basic necessity - the Bible - to achieve my goal. And of course, last but not least, the important one we both share: the will.
Strength of it... it just starts from this very question: Are you willing?
It's only a Yes or a No.
And I couldn't continue my thoughts after that..
~~~
Results are released on 9 jan, next mon at 2pm. (O lvls)
Do pray for me yeah? I'm getting a little anxious, just a general feeling I guess.
it echoes through my head.
Sigh. Why was I even bothered by it? It feels like I'm walking in a desert, tired, hungry, thirsty and my heart's filled with an impossible hope.
I feel like I'm in a battle, fighting against my opponent - the devil - but it's attacking me in areas where I can't retaliate, or even block. And it's even cut me deep. But you would say..
Those who know Him would say..
"Where's God?"
I'm not saying He's not here, but rather, I am - in a way - ignoring Him, not wanting God's help. Well, that's what people would think from the outside. It's not that I deliberately do so, but more so that I don't know how to let God deal with my daily battles in life.
Remembering that Jesus died on the cross for ALL our sins wasn't enough. I needed to let go. Letting go is something I find so hard to do. Letting go of people you love, people you hate, your past, present, future, even letting go of possessions. I keep thinking, how do people just let go of everything they hold so close to their hearts, to God? I'm not saying I don't trust Him, but I just don't. know. how.
It's funny that people just give me the look when I tell them I learn a lot from watching anime..
Maybe after reading this, you might just change your mind and to those who love watching anime, appreciate it even more. Luffy. I've been spamming this anime (One Piece) ever since last week after a long break.. He doesn't seem to care very much about anything except food and becoming a Pirate King. Even when he's in danger, he eventually wins with his strong will. He can be stubborn and playful at times, but when it comes to battling, in a way, testing him, he becomes serious. Now why am I telling you all this?
I just had the thought of becoming just like Luffy. Fun & playful, just like a little kid. Innocent. I remember the Bible mentioning about being like a child. I think about the times when I hoped I knew less of the knowledge of the world and just be confined to the thought of fun & love, and all the positive things. Innocence. The part where he doesn't care? I really wish I can be like him.. who wouldn't even care less about negative thoughts or the bad side of things even in the toughest situations.. After all, he had a goal, and that is to become Pirate King. What is our goal? Well, mine is to be the serve the Lord wholeheartedly, being a good and faithful servant. Luffy, of course, would need nakama specialised in different things like medical, food, etc.. to reach his goal eventually. Just like how I need the basic necessity - the Bible - to achieve my goal. And of course, last but not least, the important one we both share: the will.
Strength of it... it just starts from this very question: Are you willing?
It's only a Yes or a No.
And I couldn't continue my thoughts after that..
~~~
Results are released on 9 jan, next mon at 2pm. (O lvls)
Do pray for me yeah? I'm getting a little anxious, just a general feeling I guess.
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