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Hisashiburi! I know it's been a long while since the last time I posted, so I shall reward you guys with three videos today! which shall be posted at the end of my post(: Hmm.. a little update on SERVE and CNY celebrations! For SERVE, I've been having really so much fun with my group and it's just really wonderful to be in a group with everyone being so cooperative! :D Give thanks to God for that :D :D Well, as for the place for the mission trip my group will be going to, that would be Chengmai, Thailand. Yepp, it's in Northern Thailand I think...? At least, where we're gonna be..... teaching the students english/eq/stories of Jesus Christ. During the mission trip prep, we've been playing certain games which help us to learn about facilitation and help us to find out more about our eq, and yes, know more about our friends(: I thoroughly enjoy the games played during the meetings and realise there's really so much about eq that I had no idea about! :o Well, I...

Fries! Yep, fries! today just made some fries and cooked it in our very own, airfryer! hehehee not bad actually, no need oil to cook, just air(: hmm.. apparently because there's no oil involved... I can't seem to get the salt to stick to the fries =.= so the fries kinda taste funny.. maybe I should put a small bowl of salt and dip the fries in it before eating :p more effective? hehe! Well, today in SERVE we talked about the first half of the beatitudes (Matt5:3-7). And it made me think about the incident I had recently.. It's not easy to forgive even when the person sort of put you through much pain after all. But I'm still learning to do so(: I was pretty glad to be able to share more about my personal life and not be embarrassed about it.. I still have problems speaking up & out loud so whenever I do, I still blush at the end =.= gah, gotta overcome my nervousness some day :s oh well, at least I know I'm not alone :p hmm... Today was a pretty tiring day.. But...

SERVE It's the second day of SERVE and I must say, I quite like the new environment here. Everyone was so nice yesterday, all smiles and ready to serve, literally.(: But I guess there's still the new environment feeling as always... Today felt a bit... estranged. Well, a lot of things went through my mind today, but despite that, it didn't stop me from learning. I was so inspired by what Steve shared today. He's not a pastor or anything, just a church member, but he's gone to speak to many people - around my age or a little older - for the past few years. Today we learnt about our identity in Christ which is how God sees us. After the teaching, we were given questions and to answer them as we do qt in some comfortable and quiet and less distracted area. I think I found mine... shall go there tmr again.. Hmm.. Well, I would say I got a little bit distracted. But nonetheless, God was gracious and allowed me to learn something from the distraction. And the lesson is.. ...

Half full I'm on the road to majoring in music! :D well, getting ready for the big day sure is pretty tough, but I guess music has once again calmed me down for sure(: Did some productive stuff today.. did some laundry, clean orlie's pee on the floor, help someone with chording (and yay i identified the key correctly! :D), played some random piece on the piano... watch anime, playing tetris...... whoooooa! loads of stuff there :p Was supposed to tutor anna today but something came up suddenly so had to cancel tuition for today. :s Well, I'm trying to look at things positively nowadays, I guess making that effort really is helping me with my anger issues. Yes, I have anger issues..... :\ hmm.. I feel much better also actually (: Focusing less on what's not very important and focusing on what really is made me feel really great today(: Ohh! I watched a movie today too! by myself ._. Hmm.. the title of the movie's called "Water For Elephants".. Yup, it's ...

"False Testimony.." it echoes through my head. Sigh. Why was I even bothered by it? It feels like I'm walking in a desert, tired, hungry, thirsty and my heart's filled with an impossible hope. I feel like I'm in a battle, fighting against my opponent - the devil - but it's attacking me in areas where I can't retaliate, or even block. And it's even cut me deep. But you would say.. Those who know Him would say.. "Where's God?" I'm not saying He's not here, but rather, I am - in a way - ignoring Him, not wanting God's help. Well, that's what people would think from the outside. It's not that I deliberately do so, but more so that I don't know how to let God deal with my daily battles in life. Remembering that Jesus died on the cross for ALL our sins wasn't enough. I needed to let go. Letting go is something I find so hard to do. Letting go of people you love, people you hate, your past, present, future, even letti...

Living by God's grace I used to think it was easy to live by God's grace.. until there was a sudden change in my attitude and behaviour towards things, people.. I then began to condemn them, people, myself, more and more each day; how things should be so and not like whatever the person is doing. I became bounded by the laws, which made me realise what I did was unnecessary. I'm saved by God's grace, not works. The day came when I realised of my actions, my wrongdoings, I realise how difficult it is to ask for forgiveness and truly live by God's grace. I found it hard to get back up after falling. But I'm glad God's love saved me. Yesterday when I was doing my qt, or rather, before I started, I reflected and prayed about myself. How strangely God reminded me, right at the point of time, the story of the prodigal son. I burst into tears immediately upon thinking of God being so forgiving. I was reminded of how I shouldn't let my past decide my future, or ...