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Procrastination. I'm prolllly gonna have a bad habit of procrastination now. hehe, wanted to take a bath after getting dinner with my dad but I've been pretty anxious as to whether my school's blackboard's up or not yet! ): ): YES, apparently, it's down due to some maintenance.. and it's been like this for HOURS.. My lecturer's gonna kill me when he sees zero entries for my blog. OH GOSH. THAT ENTRY COULD'VE BEEN LIKE THE EASIEST TO SCORE TO CONTRIBUTE TO MY BIG BIG GRADE. T-T mummy , why? Well, it's been almost a week since my mom's LOA. (p.s. she went Malaysia, it was for some ROSES retreat thing.) And I really really really miss her.. But no worries! Me thinks she's coming home tomorrow and I can't wait to see her home!! Was thinking of even making a meal for her and my dad or something hehe :p :p baked rice! yea~~ see how. Hmm.. me thinks I need clam chowder and some ham! gotta go grocery shopping~ Okay. So I've been pretty ...

Spiritual Warfare no, this isn't gonna be a testimony or anything, but I really hope it would be. then it'd be the most, biggest, most huge miracle I've ever seen in my life. All my life I'd always thought "spiritual warfare" was the soul (us) fighting against the devil. But in a personal way. like, fighting in your thoughts. I've never really, thought.... maybe not so much about other people towards me? Like, I never knew it would affect me at all, really. Until I experienced something which made me feel like.. crap . Yes, crap . It took me awhile to figure out this was spiritual warfare, me against - the person whose name I shall not mention and replace with - Jen. It feels almost as if, looking to this person and telling yourself that this person, who's lost her faith, must be forgiven. And I hate not her person, but her sin. And I hate the distractions that brought her away. which comes in form of people and I have to keep telling myself ev...

Carrying my cross, weight of sin, eyes   fixed on Jesus and following Him I guess.. no. maybe? otherwise... no. I may sound heartless but, I wished God didn't give us freewill. but bind us to him even if we're machines or robots. There wouldn't be this much sadness in the world that we have to face and deal with, just because of the consequences of sin. it's a snowball. an endless snowball till we die. you can't just quit. because that's not what you can do. you can't idle, because you'd fall into another trap. you can't act rashly, because you most likely'd do something wrong... We're like living in a world of judgmental people who don't give a second chance to change their opinions completely of others. We're in a world where people doubt and doubt so much they hurt everyone else around them. We're in a world of darkness there seems no light, and no light in those who are lost. I just wish it all to end. I want to ...

Fall Apart Why in the world did I think I could Only get to know You when my life was good? When everything just falls in place The easiest thing is to give You praise Now it all seems upside down 'Cause my whole world is caving in But I feel You now more than I did then How can I come to the end of me And somehow still have all I need? God, I want to know You more Maybe this is how it starts I find You when I fall apart Blessed are the ones who understand We got nothing to bring but empty hands, yeah Nothing to hide and nothing to prove, yeah Our heartbreak brings us back to You, oh And it all seems upside down 'Cause my whole world is caving in But I feel You now more than I did then How can I come to the end of me And somehow still have all I need? God, I want to know You more Maybe this is how it starts I find You when I fall apart, yeah I don't know how long this will last I'm praying for the pain to pass But maybe this is the best thing That has ever...

Presence What of flesh and blood So precious and dear but whose heart grew cold Dark, sinister, and full of fear When questioned with no hidden intention, Deep within her rose red anger The battle had only begun, But I've failed to remember What of flesh and blood So precious and dear What could I have done To make your vision clear? Were it by my hands you fell Or by your heart you betrayed? "My own life I propel," You exclaimed, but inside, you were afraid... We are of flesh and blood Very precious and very dear Had you forgotten all these years I'm always here, always near? When your friends left, When that man shun you that day, Was not I who had been open Even til this day? Lift your head up, You're not alone Even when we're all grown up Or even I you disown I'll always be that stubborn me Whom you always see as your shadow Walking behind you with glee As if there's no tomorrow CHECKMATE! Yumeitto .

Short post! Since it's been quite some time I had one... And so, today'll be a baking session + stayover day @ my place with my friends :D :D :D Probably gonna be baking blueberry cheesecake and.... yep, perhaps jogging too in the evening... then maybe a movie and dinner? MAYBE .. Meeting my friends later at 3pm+? Shall head out to ICA building now with my mom to go collect my passport! :D :D Life's pretty okay right now, learning to cope and be quick to forgive.. okay. summary's done! The End.