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Merry Christmas, everyone! Tis' the season to be jolly, falalalala-lala-la-larrhhhh~~ I learnt how to play Saboteur today! Learnt it with my cousins :D :D Found out that we were all so good at being saboteurs, out of all the 5 games - I think - we played, the sabers won. We all got to play the saboteur role.. I went christmas gift shopping yesterday with my mom and it was super tiring but fun! xD We were practically rushing from place to place - without a car. Yes, the mrt. packed like sardines in a cabin. Nevermind about that, although I did spend quite a lot, I was glad to have bought a number of things! Have yet to buy presents for some cos I didn't bring enough cash that day.. =.=" It's okay! I'm left with a few people's gifts to settle… :p mind me, people! I'll be going for another crazy shopping day soon… Hopefully… haish. overbudget man. totally overbudget. But it's okay. I didn't expect I'd be buying for so many peopl...

DYB Camp I will blog about DYB camp soon, I promise . Sigh. For now, I need to pour out my sorrows. #rant DYB camp was an extremely refreshing experience. Breaking off from camp was really saddening, but it's sooner or later anyway. It's always the case where right after I've been so high up there, I drop down low. Seriously. I hate satan. God, just send me to heaven right now. The most is people will just weep for me for awhile and get over it. I hate going through this all. the. time. Yet.. I know going through this will bring me closer to God, even though it seems kind of indirect.. Argh. I just know I'm extremely saddened by something and I don't understand why these things must always happen. When you grow spiritually, you become sort of a more tempting bait to the devil to eat your flesh off till you're left with nothing but skeletons. shame . guilt . Go to hell, Satan. Stay there. I imagine God just magically using this magic wand wavin...

Say Something Feeling melancholic now. Just received good news in the morning. Then again, I've got to wait till about the beginning of next year before I get some confirmation of that good news. :) Had a great time today. Showed ben the song ^^^ above. It's a really meaningful, beautiful song telling of the importance of good communication in any relationship. Yes , that includes friends too. I'm feeling rather sian.. I don't think it's just because of what happened earlier, but I think it's also because of what would happen in the coming days.. So many things going on.. most of it.. I'm not really looking forward to. And that's sapping away a lot of my energy… Sad people sap energy from happy people. Yeah, that probably sums up at least 1/4 of my sadness now. Haish. OKay, that's enough for this post. Too much dwelling won't help me one bit. I know it all, yet my heart stalls at the door, frozen, can't seem to speak. It doe...

Social Politics suck . Then again, it's something everybody has to deal with all because of.. no, let me rephrase that, ALL THANKS TO MR. SIN . My painkillers have and always been distractions. They numb me from the pain as if it was never there, then comes back like an arrow released from a bow, straight through my heart once its effects wear out. Lately, I've been feeling so much negativity I can't help it, but.. 1) Talk to God 2) Cry. just. cry. 3) Write songs I know it isn't good to dwell in it? But really? To have so many negative events back-to-back is something I've never quite dealt with before, or at least - if my memory failed me - for a long long time. It's just.. depressing.. yet.. I don't wish to drag people who aren't even involved into my depressed-aura circle. Or however I should phrase that. Depressing. Depressing. Depressing. Smiles that hide everything. Fake gestures and a mask. on. All black geese, but appears to...