Actually considering
Actually considering..
About going for that interview. yes, that woman called me this early afternoon to go for an interview tomorrow at Orchard Central, 4pm. Some model thing.
I stopped to realise how scary things were at that moment. I was actually considering to go for that interview, but at the same time, I look at myself with so so many flaws. I have fats at my waist - so if I had to do a shoot exposing my waist, it'd be so ugly - I have fat thighs, short legs, barely oval-shaped face, not so sharp chin, big feet, not very toned legs, and above all, I'm short and don't have nice teeth -models, imo, should have nice and straight teeth with a good smile to go with, I for one, don't have. and I'm 18 this year. Why me? Why had I considered anyway?
It's because of these many flaws I actually considered. It sounds like an irony, or contradiction. But really, ask any girl out there - how beautiful doesn't matter - they'll tell you 101 flaws about they look, even when you find them beautiful. Every girl wants to be pretty, but there'll always be something that they find ugly to their overall beauty.
Anyways, still thinking about the interview, after asking many people of their opinions to this, I guess it's almost even of approving and disapproving of me really going for the interview. It's true, I'm still so so young. I don't know if I'll get tricked into all these kind of adult things. especially issues with money. I gotta save up for what I'm really majoring right? this is a distraction. A DISTRACTION.
So, I've thought about it. And yes, although I know I was supposed to wait for my mom to come back and talk to me about it before deciding on anything....... but I've made up my mind.
I CAN'T BE BOTHERED TO IMPRESS ANYBODY OKAY.
I CAN'T BE BOTHERED TO PRACTICE "ATAS" ETIQUETTE.
I CAN'T BE BOTHERED TO PUT IN SO MUCH EFFORT TO COVER UP SO MANY FLAWS THAT I HAVE.
I CAN'T BE BOTHERED TO GO ORCHARD. FINE, SOMERSET MRT, CLOSE ENOUGH ANYWAY.
I CAN'T BE BOTHERED TO BE SO COMMITTED IN SOMETHING I'M NOT EVEN MAJORING IN.
I CAN'T BE BOTHERED BECAUSE I HAVE NO FASHION SENSE.
AND ABOVE ALL,
I CAN'T BE BOTHERED TO GO, AND I ABSOLUTELY DON'T HAVE TO GO BECAUSE I'M BEAUTIFUL WITHOUT THEM. or can be, on my own.
HMPH.
okay.
i'm done ranting. no further questions or comments.
About going for that interview. yes, that woman called me this early afternoon to go for an interview tomorrow at Orchard Central, 4pm. Some model thing.
I stopped to realise how scary things were at that moment. I was actually considering to go for that interview, but at the same time, I look at myself with so so many flaws. I have fats at my waist - so if I had to do a shoot exposing my waist, it'd be so ugly - I have fat thighs, short legs, barely oval-shaped face, not so sharp chin, big feet, not very toned legs, and above all, I'm short and don't have nice teeth -models, imo, should have nice and straight teeth with a good smile to go with, I for one, don't have. and I'm 18 this year. Why me? Why had I considered anyway?
It's because of these many flaws I actually considered. It sounds like an irony, or contradiction. But really, ask any girl out there - how beautiful doesn't matter - they'll tell you 101 flaws about they look, even when you find them beautiful. Every girl wants to be pretty, but there'll always be something that they find ugly to their overall beauty.
Anyways, still thinking about the interview, after asking many people of their opinions to this, I guess it's almost even of approving and disapproving of me really going for the interview. It's true, I'm still so so young. I don't know if I'll get tricked into all these kind of adult things. especially issues with money. I gotta save up for what I'm really majoring right? this is a distraction. A DISTRACTION.
So, I've thought about it. And yes, although I know I was supposed to wait for my mom to come back and talk to me about it before deciding on anything....... but I've made up my mind.
I CAN'T BE BOTHERED TO IMPRESS ANYBODY OKAY.
I CAN'T BE BOTHERED TO PRACTICE "ATAS" ETIQUETTE.
I CAN'T BE BOTHERED TO PUT IN SO MUCH EFFORT TO COVER UP SO MANY FLAWS THAT I HAVE.
I CAN'T BE BOTHERED TO GO ORCHARD. FINE, SOMERSET MRT, CLOSE ENOUGH ANYWAY.
I CAN'T BE BOTHERED TO BE SO COMMITTED IN SOMETHING I'M NOT EVEN MAJORING IN.
I CAN'T BE BOTHERED BECAUSE I HAVE NO FASHION SENSE.
AND ABOVE ALL,
I CAN'T BE BOTHERED TO GO, AND I ABSOLUTELY DON'T HAVE TO GO BECAUSE I'M BEAUTIFUL WITHOUT THEM. or can be, on my own.
HMPH.
okay.
i'm done ranting. no further questions or comments.
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