A Thousand Years

A Thousand Years

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Cold sweat and sweaty palms

A scream in my dream, a tear in my eye

Pictures flashing, sudden qualm

Back straightened up, then collapsed with a sigh

Fingers running through thin strands of hair

A song, a story, I've always dreaded

Always the heavy lump of despair

A huge amount of energy wasted

There I lay,

Rolling around,

All wrapped up

Beads of perspiration flowing down

But still the frostiness lingers

The Lie, I convinced myself no longer

I bit my lower lip and swallowed

Eyes closed, clenched fist

Hunger for warmth grew every second

Words in my mind were a thousand

It moved, my mouth, it opened wide

Not a sound heard, I tried, tried, tried...

Taking a deep breath in,

Shaky, but steady, I held it in

One more day -- I lied to myself again --

It'll all be gone -- all this pain.

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