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On Vacation Do note that whatever that follows after this paragraph is what I typed 4 days ago. Yes, I'm typing this paragraph on Sunday night, although it says Monday morning cos it's 12.59AM PEOPLE! :D Yup, so hope you'll enjoy reading it! #longpost :D ~ ~ ~ And so I'm in the train now, currently "blogging" in my phone. Technically, writing a note in it, after which I'm gonna copy and paste it on to my blog when I get some wifi. (Btw, I'm in Taiwan and photos are up almost every day on my Facebook page! :D) As I've been awhile for some time now, here, in Taiwan (taipei&hualian), it has been a very humbling experience for me. This very important lesson I learnt, through my family, especially my grandparents. Yup, they came along with us.. Things started off pretty tough. You know, with grandparents being naggy, noisy and all. Worse , on our first day, we got lost trying to find the hotel to book in hahaha :\ everyone was pretty flust...

MIA I'll be mia-ing guys. 9-15 June. Taiwan trip. bye.

BUSYBUSYBUSY. 10 things I thank God for . 1) I ate a feast (BBQ) today! :> 2) Enjoyed the company of Ben & friends :D 3) Got to taste the extremely extremely good bolo buns near my house. Shared them with some of my friends too! :D 4) Having people around who appreciate me, my works, what I do. 5) It all comes down to spending time with God, so... solitude. Thank God for solitude, silent moments where I just dwell in His presence. 6) Realising that everything is meaningless (refer to book of Ecclesiastes). 7) My couple friends! I mean, they're really fun to hang out with, like double dates, etc. 8) It's the holidays, I can relax, yet not entirely, cos I'll be learning while working on my assignments.. which is a good thing. Relaxedly learning . or vice versa . 9) Letting me retain my memories. I HAVE MEMORIES TO LOOK BACK ON AND SAY, " Hey, I had a GREAT childhood ." 10) I'm starting to have studio slots :D To work on my song, that is. ...

Shaking. 10 things I thank God for . 1) PRESENTATION IS OVER. YESSSS!!!!! 2) Though I was nervous, I wasn't shot at. so... so... relieved.... OTL 3) Being progressive after being taught a lesson about procrastination! 4) Being the very solution I need to get out of potholes. 5) Happy hormones? haha! :p 6) Having memories. 7) Helping me to see the importance of having a close relationship with Him. 8) MY EARS. MY SO VERY VERY GOOD AND IMPORTANT-TO-ME-FOR-THE-REST-OF-L-MY-LIFE EARS!!! 9) Air-con remote controls -_- 10) Learning guzheng for 10 years did not go to waste at all. ~ ~ ~ Shaking . I was really, really shaking during the presentation. My mind was blank and I didn't get to say what I rehearsed somewhat many times at home ._." I learnt that procrastinating won't bring you anywhere. I mean, sure, you can push it aside on some day given the reason you're not feeling well so you excuse yourself, but that doesn't mean you can keep doing i...

Crash. 10 things I thank God for . 1) Presentation Day is tomorrow and probably won't be as intimidating as I thought it'd be - not saying that there's no pressure. haha! 2) I got to have some crumble fudge choc - dunno what - I think.. for a reward for practicing so hard! yay. 3) Despite me being really glued to the piano recently, Ben has not loved me any less when I'd spent less time with him/texting him. (: 4) I get to edit my demo soon! (after all the stressful days of preparing for the presentation tomorrow...) 5) Encouragement from those around me; family & friends.. 6) My Protector. 7) For blessing me with yet another day to prepare for my presentation tomorrow - mentally. 8) Being able to catch up with the girls; Jel & Bel, today :D :D 9) Being able to laugh off certain things. 10) Making me strong. ~ ~ ~ Yea. So from the list above, clearly, my presentation which I really really hoped to do today will be tomorrow. -_- I EVEN REQUE...

Lazy. it has been seriously getting to me lately. 10 things I thank God for . 1) Organization. 2) NO MORE TRANSCRIPTIONS TO DO MUAHAHA - for now. 3) This is the last week of school before the holiday tidal wave hits the shore~ 4) I'm progressing well with my practice/preparation for this wednesday... I think. hahaha 5) Making me feel so much better than previous days - less stressed 6) Helping me to see I just need to do my best for Him, He will be proud of me, even when other people aren't. 7) INVENTION OF JACKETS. 8) Orlie's new skinny-skinny look now that just keeps me laughing everytime she just sits there and stare pathetically right into my eyes. (your fur will grow, my dear!) 9) Motivating me to accomplish something I've been just procrastinating... 10) A comfy bed to sleep in. ;) ~ ~ ~ Haha, well, I've been feeling stressed lately, hence the irregular posts. And also I think I'm still not used to blogging every day - I now realise ...

GAH. I LOST TRACK. WHAT DAY IS IT ALREADY?! 10 things I thank God for . 1) A REALLY SUPER DUPER DUPER AMAZING THING HAPPENED TODAY. AFFIRMATION. Helped/supported a friend in need. Turns out, the person who he turned to before, said the same thing as I did! WHOA.  O-O 2) Bob (my DMAT senior) is really really nice. got to have an extra lesson on random REMT stuff with him & some friends today ^^ 3) Telling me I'm not alone. 4) Sending His Son to die on the cross for His people. 5) Giving me today to live. 6) GOOD INFLUENCE. 7) Being able to accomplish stufffssss todayyyy! 8) I HAD CLOSE TO 3 HOURS OF REST. THIS IS AWESOME. I kept dreaming of me fainting lol. probably a sign, a reminder that I should be resting more or I'd become like that haha. 9) Soothing piano music to calm my nerves. 10) Unconditional love . ~~~ Yes, I haven't been blogging... I've been so stressed, fatigue just consumed me. I'm hoping I can blog every day after my stre...

15th Day 10 things I thank God for . 1) I've been inspired with a pretty nice-catchy tune! May write a new song soon! :D :D 2) I'm getting fluent with "Love Me" by Yiruma :) 3) THE DEADLINE FOR TRANSCRIPTION IS EXTENDED TO NEXT MONDAY BECAUSE THIS FRIDAY IS A PUBLIC HOLIDAY! WOOHOOO!!!! 4) My course that I'm studying/ 5) Electricity. O_O really. 6) Being able to draw strength, courage and wisdom from Him. 7) I probably have said this before but.. I really thank God for lessons. Talking about lessons from classrooms to life lessons not instructed, not spoken, but shown  and learnt through actions - whether it has got to do with me or not - in my daily life. 8) Extra storage space to back up my files - y a y ! 9) Being able to plan out what I wanted to do today, and accomplish it. 10) Having time to relax despite my pretty stressful - literally, or as perceived - schedule nowadays. ~~~ So those are the 10 things I'd like to give thanks to G...

14th Day 10 things I thank God for . 1) I could easily complete a four-bar melody w chords (including on borrowed chord in there) task during music theory thanks to "Paper planes"! 2) I could complete "Love Me" by Yiruma yesterday. My standard of it now is pretty okay. 3) Being able to spend time with Ben today. 4) Ben who helped me to see things clearer and in a better light such that I'm not as stressed as before. 5) Teaching me lessons that benefit my future, that give glory to God. 6) Having a feast earlier with my family. (We even had Secret Recipe - bought from M'sia last wednesday - with a scoup of vanilla haagen daaz ice-cream for dessert!!) 7) Watching over my sis as she does CIP in Philippines. 8) Being a God whom I can rely on. 9) Planning this - life - route for me. 10) Allowing me to use this "10 things" list to remind me to be positive and God-centred. ~~~ Well, I don't really have much to say so.. yup! :) :) ...

13th Day. 10 things I thank God for . 1) Sermons. again. I like the way shu ling preaches. It's very precise; to the point. then again, I'm not being bias, but I feel I see things clearer when she preaches haha.. :x (about same frequency) But, yes, pastor Jo, pastor william and invited guest speakers! I don't mean to offend anyone >.< actually some guest speakers are really funny too... HAHA okay, moving on... 2) Christianity being about reconciliation (one of the beatitudes, Matthew 5) 3) I Am Nothing without CHRIST. C.H.R.I.S.T.I.A.N. 4) Reminding me who I am, who He is. 5) Encouragement. 6) Being safe, not having any diseases, etc. My family, cousins, relatives... 7) Being close to my parents, enough to tease them, yet not go overboard; know my limits. 8) Parents. 9) Development in Singapore. 10) Maturing. ~ ~ ~ God is love . Saying that really makes my day. Well, I do apologise - again, as of late >.< - that I keep posting stuff past...

12th Day. 10 things I thank God for . 1) I got to got out with Qing today and got a red beanie and a 'geek' (caption) shirt! :D Had an awesome time fellowshipping. 2) Exposure to different instruments! I got to try out the bass yesterday. Super cool *-* And I wanted to type this yesterday, but I forgot ahahaha~ 3) Whoever invented the machines to make waffles. like, belgian waffles. and the idea of them with vanilla ice-cream and maple syrup.... *drools* 4) I'm getting closer to the younger ones in YE. 5) People who listen. 6) Understanding parents. They learn to let their children go when it's time. 7) Pastor Andrew. Yes, he talks a lot, but mostly shares a lot of wonderful testimonies :D 8) The "Accountability" lesson today, led by Daniel Pflug. 9) Helping Clara through the stressful period of preparing for worship :) It turned out great!! :D :D 10) Church friends. ~ ~ ~ I've probably... added a new colour to my favourite colour li...

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10th Day. 10 things I thank God for . 1) In my low times, I have people around me to comfort me. 2) I have friends who're willing to help me with my song - regarding arranging. 3) He has not and will never forsake me. 4) I got to enjoy a brownie my mom bought in m'sia from Secret Recipe . 5) LogicPro. MIDI samples. 6) Psychologists. Doctors. 7) Loving me. 8) Understanding me. 9) Providing for my daily needs. 10) Telling me to get that package (mic, mic stand, A.I., etc). ~~~ I do apologise for skipping two days. I've been pretty busy this week, and unfortunately, will only be so much more busier in the weeks to come. Yes, I guess by that statement you can be quick to judge; right to say... I'm feeling pessimistic again. I guess it's because of the days I skipped this " 10 things " thing, and well, not only that, but I've been falling asleep during my QT every night. Problem: School's becoming increasingly stressful for me. An...

7th Day. 10 things I thank God for. 1) I had the privilege to eat the last mee sua.. before it ran out. yes, the one and only . 2) Got to enjoy some Nutella N' Banana Crépe after class today! :D :D 3) My ez-link card actually had enough money to tap in, otherwise I'd be late for class having to top it up and having the risk of missing my train...... haha.. =.= 4) Got to spend quality time again with my parents & ben; had dinner together, did the clearing up together, watched the 9pm (channel 8) show together, oh yeah! and some movie that's.. something... " reacher ". I can't remember, but it's the name of the main character's name. 5) I'm fortunate to have recorded my vocals (one verse and one chorus) last friday cos I need to finish up a demo of that length by this thursday. 6) I felt relief while praying with ben before we parted ways (literally, I don't mean like, break up, okay. I meant like, go back home . lol.) 7) My dad ...

6th Day. 10 things I thank God for . 1) The speaker today was so hilarious I was literally leaning forward and laughing the whole time - yes, I paid attention. really glad this was the message for today. 2) I got to eat my fav. fried tofu for lunch & dinner! mmm~~ 3) Got to also eat the yummy herbal jelly (luo han duo flavour) :O 4) I AM NOT SICK TODAY YES!!!!! :D :D 5) I am still living now. 6) Being able to spend time with my parents watching ABTM 2~ 7) I can finally eat the rittersport choc :3 8) I'm progressing with "Scream". 9) I was encouraged with regards to songwriting. 10) My parents are as lame & fun to be with. ~ ~ ~ I am.. so so.. so.. sorry i didn't prepare anything for my mom today. Instead, she was doing all the cooking for our meals. oh my gosh. I feel so bad. MOM, IM GOING TO MAKE IT UP TO YOU ON YOUR BIRTHDAY IN JUNE. YOU'LL SEE OKAY. T-T OTL okay. so here I am, blogging everyday since Tuesday (this week) and.......

5th day going with the usual.. 10 things I thank God for. 1) I was able to wake up kinda on time even after actually unknowingly instead of snoozing my alarm, I turned it off... 2) the audition went pretty okay I think! 3) I was pretty content and knew in my heart that even if I didn't get the role, I know God wants me elsewhere for a purpose. 4) I was really sick in the morning/afternoon but was really way better in the evening. I think as of now I have no fever already. :D :D 5) despite my sickness, as I worshipped God (lead worship) today, I felt this great sense of relief, like literally nothing was holding me back. "Rejoice rejoice~" was all that was in my head :D 6) Jarell sang with me! He sang for the very first time in YE! YAY!!! I really really enjoyed singing with him :D :D good job jarell! 7) Ben bought me rittersport (cornflakes flavour) yesterday and gave it to me today to reward me for a doing a good job with worship (praise & adoration) t...

4th Day 10 things I thank God for. 1) I wrote a new song. 2) Today's lessons were rather relaxing. 3) I managed to record about a couple of takes for "Paper Planes"'s Verse 1 and 1st Chorus. Just the vocals. p.s. the reverb in the music room is totally awesome, I LOVE IT!! 4) Finally can hand in transcription for "A Whole New World". #senseofaccomplishment 5) Nice people in my course. Never actually realised till this year. 6) Ben drove me home to get my equipment for recording. Even drove me back home and sent me up, helping my to carry the equipment ^^ 7) Friends who motivate and encourage you to do better. 8) My mom who bought my fav carrot cake this morning for my breakfast. 9) I could apply my poetic skills into writing secular music/lyrics. awesome. (This is part of the first point, but still separate things, me feels.) 10) My comfy, comfy bed, pillow, bolster, soft toys, blankie. ~~~ Well I woke up with a bit of sore throat which...

10 things I thank God for. In case some of you are wondering, I'm actually typing this on Thursday, past midnight. 1) my mom sent me to school today 2) I actually continued working on my song titled "Paper Planes". JJ helped me with the basic chords (im just so tired of transcribing.. I needed help, okay) yesterday and I edited it a little and added some sevenths~ 3) great friends in school who have never ending happenings 4) I got to taste that sucking grass jelly thing after so so long!! 5) "A Whole New World" really brings me to a magical place. 6) MUSIC THEORY . 7) seniors whom I can depend on and look for when I need help. 8) orlie who brightened up my mood when I entered the house. She just went wagging her tail - her entire butt was moving too - and squealing happily was just so happy to see me. aw...   9) I finally got to understand the importance of noise gate and how to use it 10) AIR-CON!!!! ~~~ Okay, so I missed out yesterday...

10 things 1) I thank God that the weather was cooling in the morning and in the early evening. 2) I thank God that my music theory song for transcribing (for this week) is just one page long. 3) I thank God that song is a favourite song when I was little. "A Whole New World". 4) I thank God that I have a CF-er in same sip class as me, so he can chase me to go for CCA right after. 5) I thank God that my group members in SIP are really funny and interactive. 6) I thank God that I got to enjoy Mac N' Cheese with subway's Cream of Mushroom soup for my "first-half of my dinner" with a friend. 7) I thank God that CF was very welcoming, and I got to get closer to my new friends I made with last week. 8) I thank God Luke came. 9) I thank God that my mom cares about me. 10) I thank God that my parents are growing spiritually and are rubbing off good influence (spiritually) on me. So... I've decided to make it a habit to think of 10 things to give ...

CF. Christian Fellowship. And so I have a new nickname in CF. the "pon-ster". heh heh. Not that I'm proud of it, really. I just did not put my CCA at the top of my priority list... As a result, I didn't turn up for most of CF sessions. Well, I guess it's also due to my inactivity that my fb group for CF even disappeared from my column..... (which explains why I never/stopped receiving notifications about ANYTHING regarding CF. that included today's session. -.- and CCA fair!! ): I wanted to help sia. and get some cca points man. -.- pfft.) Ah well. Still got next year I guess.. I gotta go to CF more often now. Even more so now that I'm trying to get a scholarship... ._. so hard. sigh. Well, purposes aside, I'm glad I came today! I'm always happy at the end of every CF session because I feel refreshed, renewed, and encouraged in my faith by those around me - those who attended the session. I never regretted joining CF you know, in case som...

Anime Anime!~ And so I've been taking a really long break from anime... I've updated my anime list though! Watched two anime over a period of like.. 3 months or something. Ao No Exorcist is one I'll recommend! It's a bit of a comedy, and somewhat like a bit of power and stuff... It's like God vs Satan. Yeah. kind. of. anime. hmm. But it's kinda funny actually! Oh yeah, a little note, it can be a bit gruesome like blood coming out of eyes and nose and .. ears too, I think? So if you can't take that, haha maybe it's not the right anime for you then! Currently, I'm starting on this new anime called Red Data Girl. So here's the summary: A modern fantasy based on Japanese Shinto legends. Suzuhara Izumiko is a 15-year-old girl, who has been raised and protected in a shrine deep in the Kumano mountains. She is quite shy and destroys all the electric devices she touches. When she begins to think about going out of the mountains and moving to the cit...

Band Prac and so, I was grouped with a few others to form a band and it's a pretty cool combination! We've got people playing keys, bass, guitar, vocals, ... melodica.. *raises eyebrows up and down* Well, that's just our current roles I guess! :D We'll be playing "The Only Exception" This friday, 2044, @ 5pm, but.. I'm not advertising or anything cos it's just for my batch people (yes, dmat-ers) heh heh. Had a great time of prac this early early MORN in' ! Okay, it was THAT early, it's actually erm.. 10? At the jazz band club room.. :O :O Heh heh. So what's.. my role? Well, other than the melodica, I'll be backing up as well - harmonizing . So switch here and there, blah blah blah. I'm a bit worried this arrangement wouldn't be possible but then again..... I'll try and see if it's possible to do both of them - although I didn't quite put melodica in my major nor minor instrument... haha! ah well, see how. Ther...

NEW DP YAY! :D Just changed my dp in my poem blog. hehe. kthxbai.

Free Time Since I've got a lil free time on my hands now, I shall blog! So, the first week of the semester has just passed and like any other first weeks (except previous sem's first week cos previous sem was hell with all those holidays and stuff.), it was pretty intimidating where the lecturers will brief us on what we'll be learning and what assignments we'll be given, what we have to prepare, etc. I'm really looking forward to what I'll be learning this sem! I've been driven to writing some lyrics after being exposed to a lot of pop/punk pop/rock. It's been really awesome hearing those genres now, I'm seriously growing to love them a lot. You see, I used to ALWAYS listen to religious/classical songs. That's it. The amount of secular songs I listen to are very limited. However, I do have a favorite country singer who is none other than Taylor Swift! :D How was I drawn towards her? Well, I've always fancied - no, in fact, I loved - so...

As promised, a post. (p.s. you can ignore the previous post summary.) Imagine... If the world was finally all serious about life and how awkward the atmosphere might be. Just at the moment where BAM everyone realizes how important and fragile their lives are and they just start walking around like zombies, in deep reflection about their lives, in the quiet, with only shuffling sounds. I think that's how my life is right now. I mean, just for me I guess - the world's still a noisy place anyway. I walk around and it's dead people. Like a masquerade everywhere, people are not themselves, they are someone else. Maybe they're all just one person, or a few, who knows? I just know they're not them. I walk around and I see myself and them. I hear the words from scripture in John 3:16-21. I can't erase the thought of people rejecting the truth. They know they can't run away from it, some are skeptical to the point where they believe the truth is.. NOT ...

John 3:16-21 16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. 17 For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. 18 Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because they have not believed in the name of God’s one and only Son. 19 This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but people loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. 20 Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that their deeds will be exposed. 21 But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what they have done has been done in the sight of God. I'd initially typed a really long message here, but I realised it was really too much to talk about and it's late at night so I can't really seem to piece them all...

Red. Retard. And so I'm halfway through my hols and I'm doing a great job slacking! :D What did I do today? Erm.. got up at.. 2pm-ish, ate like the butterfly & red bean thingy.. I dunno, they sell these golden browns stuff in kopitiam dim sum there. My grandma bought it for us ytd but no one ate it I guess... So, that was my lunch with some leftover milk - heng ah, not expired - and my morning honey drink w some pills (calcium and dunno what) that my mom always prepare for me in the morning every day. So while "lunch-ing" I watched last night's 9pm, channel 8 tv drama episode which I missed due to a class chalet which I had to attend to (I must say, despite me not looking forward to it at all, it wasn't all that bad I guess). Andd... then..... I slacked. and slacked. and slacked. Fb-ed. And slacked. Read xiaxue's blog. and slacked. oh yeah, tried on some.. supposedly easy to put on makeup and stuff...... - yes, not so easy in the end so I gave u...

A Red Candle. Slowly, it burns A sweet fragrance it emits Unconsciously, it flows Into the deep recesses of my mind Weak, but determined, It dances around on the spot Ever so freely, Amazed at its beauty But time was short No mercy upon it It soon fades away All things shun from it They all gathered To remember who it was and what it did To learn from the death of a friend And grieve for its soul Has its reason for its sweat Ever been for worries? No, the life it led Never had such an ability For it danced so freely Full of spirit, full of joy Not once it stopped Never did it stop Has its reason for its flame Ever been to harm others? No, the light it gave, Only brought people together It brought smiles to their faces Led them to embraces & kisses Not once it stopped giving Never did it stop CHECKMATE Yumeitto.

Why so serious? "People say I take Christianity too seriously, but.. I don't know, God took it pretty seriously when He sent His Only Son, Jesus Christ to die for our sins  that we may have eternal life." To Christians out there, I know at times it's hard, being lukewarm is something so so common, but never forget the extremely amazing act of love God showed mankind back then. I remember hearing a quote similar to what I've typed above and I hope it'll serve as a reminder for people out there, struggling to get out of the lukewarm zone. Then perhaps we can ask ourselves, God has done so much for us, but how much are we really investing in getting to know Him/our relationship with God if we - so say, or rather - are committed, and call ourselves to be Christians?

Loud I realise how much I detest loud and angry people. Oh, don't get me wrong, I absolutely do not refer to people scolding/reprimanding me or anything cos it would've been quite reasonable, especially when I'm young since I don't know a lot and tend to do a lot of stupid things... I refer to people - it may be anyone, not just those with anger-management problems - who have those eyes that tell you, "I. HAVE. HAD. E-NOUGH. OF. YOU." eyes. Yup, it may not just be a public nuisance, especially since those eyes would accompany with the thunderous, intimidating roar, but .. I don't know if some of you get what I'm trying to say, but when you were young, get scolded, sometimes when the reason for that wrongdoing is far beyond our understanding and our parents just don't tell us why, you're just left hanging there? yeah. that's feeling. You... don't really know. I tend to feel like crying when this happens.. even now. Yeah sure, whe...

Actually considering.. About going for that interview. yes, that woman called me this early afternoon to go for an interview tomorrow at Orchard Central, 4pm. Some model thing. I stopped to realise how scary things were at that moment. I was actually considering to go for that interview, but at the same time, I look at myself with so so many flaws. I have fats at my waist - so if I had to do a shoot exposing my waist, it'd be so ugly - I have fat thighs, short legs, barely oval-shaped face, not so sharp chin, big feet, not very toned legs, and above all, I'm short and don't have nice teeth -models, imo, should have nice and straight teeth with a good smile to go with, I for one, don't have. and I'm 18 this year. Why me? Why had I considered anyway? It's because of these many flaws I actually considered . It sounds like an irony, or contradiction. But really, ask any girl out there - how beautiful doesn't matter - they'll tell you 101 flaws about th...